I believe I mentioned in a past post that I had consented to have a vasectomy performed. My 1st wife had brought it up that she really didnt want any more children and she had some complications so I went along with it but....the moment the Vas was severed I felt God's Holy Spirit withdraw from me, The same anguish a young lady feels when she has made a choice to abort,and the attendants dont let the patient see the monitor.....I can never get back what was taken from me.We were made to go fourth and multiply...God didnt say we have too many people on the planet,.....I have by bad choice become Unic...unable to produce sperm therefore can not pro create...this is more serious than the other sins, because it deals with life,and procreation.....sex is good.....I mean real good , but God ment that for a husband and wife to enjoy ,but if you can not contain yourself its better to marry than to burn....What I did through ignorance of the truth, and informed choices I still made the wrong choice and am paying for it.....God has forgiven me but He has not given back to me what he Took........I pray everyday that all will be forever fixed, by his hand.....things I did as being stupid I hope doesnt ruin my life,like focusing on this subject....He took it from me......I felt it leave me, that glory cloud thats what it was like a glory cloud...and because I harkened to the voice of my wife in this thing it was taken from me.....It hasnt came back either.
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What I look at is that through faith Abraham became the father of many nations, and yet there was a point he allowed Sarah to talk him into having a child with Hagar and one might think...where was his faith then? Yet the Bible tells us he had faith. And I worry when I have doubts????
Chip,
Biblically many people choose to live single, and therefore do not have kids. Are they unfruitful?
But is that God making you feel unfruitful? Comon! You know better and you know where it's coming from. ;-)
Chip,
I didn't say it was right or wrong. What I did say is that God can use our weaknesses for His glory. I am encouraging you not to mourn over any past mistakes but glory in our Lord Who can take our weaknesses and use them for His glory. It is time for you to quit kicking yourself. Jesus is Lord, period. You are giving yourself way too much credit. :)
Chip,
Surely you would agree that true beauty is internal, and comes from a gentle quiet spirit.
Blessings, Carla
CHIP, I THINK I CAN IDENTIFY WITH WHAT YOU ARE FEELING. WHEN I WAS 28, I HAD A TUBLIGATION. I WAS HAVING SOME PROBLEMS AND AT THE TIME I DIDN'T WANT TO HAVE ANY MORE CHILDREN BECAUSE OF MY MARRIAGE. I COULDN'T TAKE THE PILL ANYMORE AND DEFINITELY DIDN'T WANT ANYMORE WITH MY ABUSIVE HUSBAND. I WANTED OUT AND WAS SCARED. I THOUGHT BY THE TIME I GET THROUGH THIS I'LL BE TO OLD TO HAVE CHILDREN AGAIN. IT WAS A SIMPLE SURGERY, OUTPATIENT. I WENT BACK TO WORK 3 DAYS LATER. I WAS UNCOMFORTABLE FOR A FEW DAYS THAT'S ABOUT IT. AT THE TIME I WORKED IN A JUVENILE FURNITURE STORE. BEAUTIFUL CRIB SETS, EVERYTHING FOR BABY. I WAS WALKING THE FLOOR ONE DAY SHORTLY AFTERWARDS , WHEN I DISCOVERED A TINY NEWBORN BABY GIRL SOMEONE HAD PUT IN A MOST BEAUTIFUL CRIB WITH ALL THE TRIMINGS. I BURST INTO TEARS AS SHE HAD A HEAD FULL OF BLACK HAIR AND LOOKED SO MUCH LIKE MY OLDEST ONE DID WHEN SHE WAS BORN. THE PAIN I FELT AT THAT MOMENT OF THE REALIZATION THAT I WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO DO THAT AGAIN WAS SO OVERWELMING. TO NEVER BE ABLE TO FEEL THAT LITTLE LIFE GROWING INSIDE OF ME AGAIN, FEELING IT KICKING AND STRETCHING, HEARING IT'S HEART BEAT AND SO MUCH MORE. IT WAS THE MOST HORRIBLE FEELING A WOMAN COULD HAVE, TO NOT BE ABLE TO GIVE LIFE AGAIN. YES, THERE WAS A CHANCE I COULD HAVE A REVERSAL BUT NOT LIKELY, BECAUSE OF THE TYPE OF PROCEDURE I HAD. THEN AFTER THE FACT, I THOUGHT ABOUT IT AGAIN DOWN THE ROAD. I WAS 36 WHEN I REMARRIED, I TALKED TO THE DOCTOR ABOUT IT AND IT'S A GOOD THING I DIDN'T GET PREGNANT AGAIN. HE WASN'T BIG ON IT AND AFTER 16 1/2 YRS OF MARRIAGE WE SPLIT UP, HE WASN'T EXACTLY FATHER MATERIAL OR HUSBAND MATERIAL AS I SADLY FOUND OUT. A GAMBLER, HE CHEATED, AND WASN'T A CHRISTIAN AS HE PORTRAYED HE WAS. SO I HAVE NO REGRETS AS I LOOKED BACK. IF I HAD A CHILD WITH THIS MAN, IT WOULD HAVE BROUGHT ALOT OF UNHAPPINESS AND PAIN TO HE OR SHE. I HAD ALREADY EXPERIENCED JUST WHAT AN INJUSTICE A PERSON MAKES TO THEIR CHILDREN WHEN THEIR SPOUSE IS AN UNSAVED HUSBAND OR WIFE. NOT TO MENTION THE RESPONSIBILITY TO FINANCIALLY TAKE CARE OF THEM. THE BIGGEST ISSUE IS BEING A RESPONSIBLE LOVING PARENT TO ME, 2 RESPONSIBLE PARENTS AND THAT JUST WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN THE CASE. YES, IT'S PAINFULL, BUT IN YOUR CASE MAYBE GOD ALLOWED IT FOR A REASON TOO. SO DON'T LOOK DOWN, FORGIVE YOURSELF. YOU AND I HAVE BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN AND GRANDCHILDREN GOD BLESSED US WITH. I LOVE YOU AND AM PRAYING FOR YOU
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