forever seek

Im still not understanding why all this i have to go through

 i do my best to live for you..but i feel im not getting thru

no matter what i will still serve you

after all you gave up your son to die  for me..you must love me to

but lord my heart is tired and beyond the point of sore

you promised you'd never let me go through anything i cant endure

i thank you from my heart and soul

and i belive your in control

but lord im just one person. and a break through would be great

not just for me,but for my daughters sake

i still love him. but my heart now lies with you

im not sure what else to pray for. my hands and knees are blue

i wanted a family. this single mom stuff is tearing me aparrt..in more ways than one

i have to do whats best for her. despite my feelings or emotions

i've cried and yelled and yes laughed a little to.its safe to say,i've gone through the motions

lord i wish me and her father could work it out

i wish wish i could depend on him, without any doubts

a marragie would be nice and a few less loney nights

but you've pulled me in this this direction and i dont see an end in sight

and now i have to fight a battle i never wanted to face

i struggle with the love i have for her father

but the love that keeps me going, is the love for my daughter

i do not wish revenge

just a new chapter in my life to begin

a chapter filled with smiles in your light

never having to be away to be away from my baby. never crying into the night

i dont know what you have in mind up there

but please show me your on my side..show me you care

forgive me for my sins and for being so weak

but please always know that i love you, and  you i will forever seek

amen