I have changed my life, to follow God's word.
I try to trust him, but that old devil seems to win, I don't know why.
I have fasted, prayed, but tonight, I can't even sleep, like satan himself is attacking me.
It's been 8 months, and I'm tired of it.
Mental torment, no peace.
I know God is powerful, why is He not helping me tonight? Or why am I not free of this?
Just for a brief moment 2 days ago,(1/2 day) I felt better. I said I would trust in God with a child like faith.
But the oppressive spirit always always always returns.
Why, God, for whatever reason, does not answer my prayers?
I feel like God is punishing me, more than I can bear.
I mean this....God could give me peace, instantly ( I have had about 1 month of peace in the last 8 months).
I know it's wrong, but I just want to give up. I won't, but i sure feel like it.
I'm just a brother in Christ.
It's like this,
I WANT God in my life.
I do not know WHAT I am doing wrong. I really don't.
I'm fasting Thursday,
John
Perhaps I need faith as a mustard seed, i sure don't have it sometimes...
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God is on the move, but I can't sleep tonight, and had a bad rdeam last night, And to all this I say "Praise God", He is in control.
Starting Monday the 17th. a season of fasting and praying. The good news is, no fear or severe torment, Praise God!!!.
But still, an 'evil 'remember spirit' hangs on. (that's what I call it). It has left, for a while, but lately has been back. so,scipture says 'fasting loosens the bands of wickedness" and "Some don't leave without prayer and fasting".
I look at fasting as more spiritual cannons on my side. And denying the flesh, as in no computer games, and media, like TV, and such.
And a very anointed counsel that I go to, has seen changes in me, Praise God!
My goal is to be 100% free of this thing, and just be stong godly man,
Thank You,
John
Isaiah 54:8 KJV In a little wrath I hid my face from thee for a moment; but with everlasting kindness will I have mercy on thee, saith the LORD thy Redeemer .
Isaiah 26:3 KJV Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee
Stay strong, John. Your friends on this forum is praying for you. I know I am. I am fighting the same fight that you are. Try to open your eyes up to the positive things in your life, as hard as that may be. The Lord works in miraculous and surprising ways. Stay faithful, study God's word, and continue to pray. You will be saved, and you will find inner peace and happiness.
Thank you for all the prayers and thoughts, and advice.
I am living for God. And it's much better.
I keep reading the word of God, praying, and once in a while, do a 1 day fast. ( I do fast from video games!)
So, I LIKE the changes in my life. I'm very nice to my ex-wife. She said, "Why wern't you this way 20 years ago? We'd still be married.".
I'm on the right path. As I look back on my life. God has told me through people, a few more areas of fogiveness to people I have hurt. I am ASHAMED how I used to live 20 years ago, as a Christian.
God knows what I needed to change.AND TURNED UP THE HEAT.Isaiah 48:10 KJV Behold, I have refined thee, but not with silver; I have chosen thee in the furnace of affliction.
Again, thank you for the prayers, I still need them,
John
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