I have pretty much come to the end of my rope. I guess I do not know how to pray, or perhaps God's will is for me to turn away from Him. Why do my prayers go unanswered? I slip deeper into despair everyday, and I really try to believe in a benevolant God, a caring God, a loving God. What I sense is I'm talking to myself when I pray. It seems every thing I pray for I get the opposite. I pray for health, I get sick. I pray for prosperity, I go broke, I pray to die, I'm still alive. I'm become afraid to pray for other people lest I bring my curse upon them. I know God tried Job, and Job in the end prevailed. But God--I am not Job. I need God's help in my life right now in so many ways. Why does he turn his face from me?