Father Please Restore my children back to me

No the day goes by that I do not remember my children. But I'm afraid my children do not remember me at all nor do they want to.

You see we lost a child before his time and we became assistant stick of a broken family and a broken marriage. My husband became so broken that he turned his attention to the children and began to alienate them away from me.
The reason for this was because he thought I should be his healer and I told him I could not he must find a way to heal. In his mind I became evil and no good for his children or as a mother or as a wife.

Long story short in the end his plan was so well conducted that my youngest son whom I adore will have absolutely nothing to do with me. He will not even give me an address in which to send gifts. I have tried so many times in so many ways and the only response for me in heartbreak and grief.

I have done the only thing I know how to do and that is to allow them to have some space in distance but I constantly think and pray for them and wish that I had a relationship with them.

I have a beautiful daughter who now has one son and another one on the way she's a wonderful mother and she does so many things so well. Unfortunately she does not have a very high opinion about me because when she got married she did not send me an invite, nor even tell me that she was getting married I had to find it out by observing what was going on with her friends on Facebook.

My second son now has a wonderful little family and he made contact one time because his oldest son wanted to know about why he didn't have a mommy. He had observed that mommy had a mommy and a daddy that Daddy had a daddy but where was his mommy?

So he was compelled to call me with the children at his side and pretend that everything was wonderful and made promises to stay in touch but that's been 2 years and abunch and nothing has happened since.

Since my first marriage did not work out really well I fell in love with a man who became emotionally unsupportive and very abusive and after I took care of his mother till she passed he had no further use for me and he dumped me for another woman.

Between the other woman and him they had me convinced that I was worthless and my life may as well just give up they wanted me committed to a hospital or an insane asylum because they thought I had Alzheimer's or MS.

Fortunately for me they also put me under Medical Care. The medical community discovered it was neither of those and it was in fact the result of mental abuse and severe anxiety and depression.

From there I sought help and found it by asking for cognitive and PTSD assistance. I also dug into my spiritual longings deeply.

From there I received a small inheritance and bought my way to obtaining my CDL and now I am on the road as an OTR truck driver and doing fairly well even though I struggle a lot with loneliness.

More than anything else I long to have a relationship with my children. So I would appreciate your prayers that the Lord would restore some of the Heartbreak and my children back to me