Please pray. It is time for me to surrender to Him

Ok,it has been atleast two years that I have been controlled by fear. I was terrified because I thought the JWs had control over me. Well, earlier this month I was telling about this problem to people on an ex JW forum. I found out since I was never baptized they can't control me. The Lord broke my chains of fear after I read what that person told me that they can't control me.

Well,I still had a problem. I didn't know how to answer their rebuttles. That is why it has been so hard to talk to mom. She has said,like when Jack Van Impe would say Jesus is God, she would reply Jesus can't be God because..."What'd He do talk to Himself when He said Father,Father why hast thou forsaken me? Jesus can't be God,He is the Son of God,etc..." She would list things so fast I was never prepared to give an answer.

Add to that she has gotton quite angry and thrown a fit even when hearing that Jesus is God. One time she even,when hearing a preacher talk about Jesus' Deity on the radio,said a few cuss words. Quite honestly I still am not sure how to talk to someone while the person is angry. I just know I have to trust the Lord with all my heart. Proverbs 3:5-6

I remember the Holy Spirit helped me one time,I think it was during June or July of 2012. Mom for some reason brought up the subject of Jesus and Satan "being" brothers. Well,I wanted to leave the room but I know it was the Holy Spirit who gave me a peace and quickly calmed me down. I didn't argue,just listened. She went on to say how Satan was the most beautiful angel with jewels,atleast I'm pretty sure she said he had jewels, until he got proud and God kicked him out of Heaven. I forget everything she said. Well, I asked her where it is in the Bible,about Jesus and Satan being brothers. She said she don't know but it is in there. That time right there proves to me I know I can trust the Holy Spirit to help me when the time comes to talk to them. I'm going to need His help to be able to verbally express the answers.

Anyways,soon after I got that answer on the ex JW forum about not being under their control I found some old notes in different packets I made last year. For ex. "Who has the authority Jesus or the WT Society?" I lost my small notebook I made last year with rebuttles in it so I had to make a notes packet instead with the rebuttles.

Now I have the answers to their rebuttles I just don't know how to verbally express them too well once the time comes to ether mom or the JWs. I have to trust the Holy Spirit will help me express answers to them properly. I need to pray about this and wait for the Holy Spirit to guide me in this. I know it'd be a mistake to talk to anyone with out His approval first of all.

I need your prayers Jesus takes my hand and gets me through this. I'm nervous but I know I can't turn back to the fear.

This video has helped me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qhnRvb-M-P4

Ever since I watched that video this has been made easier. I know no matter how far I fall Jesus will be there to catch me. It doesn't matter how impossible things seem,I know He is there to catch me.

Please pray for my parents but also for the JWs. They are in so much need of Jesus as their only Mediator to the Father.

And lastly please pray our Father gives me strength to confess Christ at all costs. I don't want to deny my Lord no matter what happens to me.

I'm ending this prayer request with a song that is helping me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2BxbF4XaP8I