I feel like I don't belong anywhere

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Permalink Reply by feet breath on September 8, 2013 at 11:47am

Thank you Lena J.

Permalink Reply by Cyndi Murphy on September 22, 2013 at 4:26pm

you need to snap out of it the only person you are hurting is yourself get over it and move on

Permalink Reply by feet breath on September 22, 2013 at 6:31pm

The Holy Spirit is changing me. I'm no longer going for a depression. Praise Jesus!

Please pray He helps me to lay down my life for Christ's sake and for the sake of others. And that I confess Jesus no matter what.

It is really hard to explain what is going on right now. I just really need your prayers. I need to know what He wants done.

Permalink Reply by Elaine Tencza PrayerRmModerator on September 23, 2013 at 6:37am

AMEN CYNDI?

Permalink Reply by Elaine Tencza PrayerRmModerator on September 23, 2013 at 6:46am

WELL SAID CHIP AMEN.

Permalink Reply by feet breath on September 23, 2013 at 11:15pm

Thank you Elaine and Chip

Permalink Reply by Cyndi Murphy on September 24, 2013 at 8:30am

please stop putting your self down and you need to get over it you are missing so much out of your life if you cant deal with this situation you need to talk to a professional, you are too young and you need fulfill your own dream get out of the house and be your own person, i am sure you can write on piece all your goood point, ask god to help you there are many prayer when you feel this bad about seek gods help to make you a strong person, say to i am good person and i like myself, and believe, please stop feeling sorry for your self and do something you are to young to fell this way dont let your life slip away,snap out of this bad situation put it in place and forget it, go out say your prayers to the lord he will help ask god and he will make you stronger, belive in god and yourself for a change stop worrying so much

Permalink Reply by feet breath on September 24, 2013 at 8:37pm

He's helping me to move on.

 

As for good points,the only good thing in me is the Holy Spirit. I can't do a whole lot but the Lord has given me two things I'm capable of doing. 1.I know how to do a couple things in first aid,hands on adult cpr and a pressure bandage on the arm. 2.While I can't sing in English [long story on that one. While English is my first language I can't sing in English too well] He has let me find out I can sing hymns in German. That only consists of for now"Amazing Grace","Jesus Loves Me" and I'm learning "What a Friend we have in Jesus".

 

He's helping me to heal from the bad situation that was when this prayer request first started.

 

I need your guys' prayers that I fully devote myself to Jesus like the brothern overseas do. I need to prepare because I know persecution is coming. It's only a matter of time until the discussion of the Deity of Christ comes up. And mom doesn't like the idea of Jesus being God,she believes He's Michael,Satan's brother. I need to prepare. Because once she tries to prove to me Jesus is Michael by going to the JWs [not sure when the elder's wife will visit. It's only a matter of time though until she eventually comes again] than persecution will begin.

 

To the JWs I'd be an apostate. It doesn't matter I've never joined. It's enough just to label me an apostate. And I'd be persecuted if the JWs ever found out what I believe,the secrets I know on their organization,the people I've talked on to online and the things I've put online [like youtube videos trying to get JWs to think about certain topics]. And they also would be very unhappy if they ever found out I have been for the last 2 years trying to get help online. I've been asking for advice concerning this situation with the JWs and that I don't want my parents to get trapped. I would be seen as an immediate threat firstly because I belong to Christ and secondly what I have found out.

 

I'm trying to be very careful at what I say here. Last year in June I got banned from a forum because I was looking for help [that and I mentioned about the cats and the neighbor]. I was told I took their eyes off Jesus and onto Satan. I didn't listen when she told me to stop talking. Honestly,I don't even know if I overlooked that. I may have not even seen her say "Stop talking about this subject". I may not have even seen her warning me to stop talking. For I remember asking [I was trying to be cautious so I asked for permission so I wouldn't get in trouble] if I could continue and another member said I could. So, I did and I got banned. I emailed the admin and found out I took their eyes off Jesus and onto Satan. That and she said I didn't listen when she told me to stop. Than Sept. 7th of this year I was trying to get help on another forum. I talked to them a lot about the topic [on the JWs] so I figured it was ok. I mentioned why I was scared. They seemed to think my fear was controlling me. The thread got locked after I tried to explain why I was scared. The locked thread was a warning to stop talking about it. I knew I couldn't stop so I left the forum. I didn't want banned for the same topic so instead I just decided to leave. That and I didn't want to be a burden for them anymore. I know I would have just given the mods a headache because it would have been a matter of time until I brought up the subject again. I know as my brothers and sisters in Christ they tried all they could to help. But I know leaving was for the best. I'll see them in Heaven someday.

 

I now have His peace. Peace that passes all understanding.  I don't know what is going to happen to me but Jesus will get me through it. Being scared hasn't helped my parents at all. So, I had to step out in faith on this one. Jesus now has given me a peace that the world can't understand. The fear part hasn't worked. So,I have to go the other way. And that is to step out and trust Jesus in whatever is going to happen.

 

He will take care of things. He will take care of my parents.

 

I just ask for your prayers that my parents and the elder and his wife find Jesus. And please pray the Holy Spirit gives me strength to confess Jesus no matter what happens.

 

This song is helping me

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sKX1_21KKwg

Permalink Reply by ribbon on September 24, 2013 at 10:00pm

Cyndi, Why so hard on Feet? She is doing good and trusting God.

 

Feet,  It really is good seeing the love of Jesus shine through you. Im with Chip write what you feel put it in words. Your friends are here  for you.

Permalink Reply by feet breath on September 24, 2013 at 11:02pm

Thank you so much Janie for the encouragement. :)

 

Well,if I can write what I need to,than thanks!

 

The Holy Spirit has been preparing me for persecution for over a year. Ever since June or July of 2012. I'm not sure which of the two months. I was scared of persecution but He comforted me by helping me to get "Extreme Devotion",a VOM book on those who have suffered before us. It was a 365 day devotional. He used it to strengthen my faith so much.

 

Well,I did get really scared awhile back of the persecution. I found out my parents might end up, if they ever become JWs, get pressured to kick me out of the house. And than leaving the other forum Sept. 7th really made me depressed. I looked back on the date of this prayer request. It was back in Aug. I was depressed because of something that very likely happened in my past. That blended into the time of my worry about the JWs. Than eventually Sept. 7th happened. Praise God I'm not worried about my past and the neighbor anymore and I know the Lord will take care of this JW situation!

 

By God's mercy I realized fear isn't helping me parents so the only thing that could be done is step out in faith and trust the Lord [like Proverbs 3:5-6 says]. That and I had to count the costs and be honest with myself at what is at stake. There is a lot at stake for me but even more so for my parents and others.

 

I put 2+2 together. There's been a lot of violence among JWs [I researched and found that to be true] and a WT article back from 2011 got very close to advocating the death of apostates. From other things I've found out the risk of death is there. I'm not posting any links because I know it goes against forum rules. I'm trying to be careful what I say.

 

I had to count the costs. And death could be the cost. The cost may just be becoming homeless. I don't really know what will happen but I know ether is a possibility. Jesus is giving me a peace that passes all understanding though. And I'm not scared. He is giving me a perfect peace even with the possibility of death. I know I'd go home to Him immediately afterwards. That and there's hope for the rapture and the resurrection that is going to be soon. And it also helps knowing He will, if I have to die for His Sake,use it to raise others up and bring people to Him. Just like He has other believers who have suffered. "The blood of the martyrs is the seed of the Church".

 

I can post this because it is a song. This helps remind me of the coming rapture and resurrection http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PHOBSiMR2-k

 

I need your prayer for my parents,the elder and his wife to find Jesus though. That and the Holy Spirit strengthens me so I never deny Christ;no matter what happens to me.

 

I have to trust Jesus. I don't know where this is headed but I know He will use whatever will happen for good. Romans 8:28 helps. And I know He has a plan for my parents. I trust He will work on them. 

 

But before anything happens I have to draw close to Him,study the Bible and prepare for persecution.

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