I need God's help to Calm Me Down (Please Pray)

I need God's help to calm me down.  I've had a huge problem in life with people.  For 7 years I was picked on.  It was more then just words, although words can be bad enough depending on what those words are and then intent of them.  I was tripped in the hallways, some of the guys tried to throw me into the girls bathroom, sometimes in class a guy would take history book and smash it into my head (the teacher just looked on)  My stuff got trashed.  Sometimes people would write swear words on my things.  The girls didn't treat me much better either.  The whole thing left me in an emotional mess.  By the time I graduated from High School I started having a nervous break down.  But it has been a long time ago now.  I'm doing ok with those memories, I think.  I usually stay calm and focused on the things I need to get done at hand.  But I have never been able to hold down a friendship.  These days as many of you might know, I'm pretty much alone in the world.  My parents are still my support, and I give back to them by helping out and paying bills.  I know that the world doesn't like Christians because it Hates Christ.  But when you go online and you try and meet people, and all you do is say "Welcome to This Site"  (Whatever site you are on at the time)  and they say something like "Thanks" and then "This Member Blocks You"  I feel that is getting a bit ridiculous.  Or if you compliment someone for having a nice smile, and they tell you, I don't care, and block you.  I don't get it.  Or if you try to talk to someone that you had just talked too the night before, and they won't answer.  Instead they just turn around delete you.  You begin to wonder, "Am I missing something?"  Or a 40 plus old married woman messages you, to tell you she's looking over your profile.  And then says, Hey I see you like young gals.  ????  It's all judgmental crap.  I had to explain that I was new to the site, and these are the only ones that "befriended" me.  :/  Since when has 18 and early 20 year olds become wrong?  It isn't like I was picking this age group on purpose.  (I am sure that if I would have stayed long enough my friends list would grown bigger and with that I would have had more of a mix of guys and girls, and 30 and 40 year olds as well.)  Things are so bad, I feel that I haft to take whatever, or whoever is willing to talk to me.  Anyways I felt the danger that website was dragging me into, so I left it.  The reason why I'm asking for prayer is because I have had to put up with junk, my whole life.  It's left a frustrated mark on me.  And when I gotta deal with stuff like this, my anger management boils really fast, and depression soon follows.  I'm trying to trust the Lord, but I just can't see what God's will in all of this.