What is wrong with me?

Ever since I was a very little girl I've had issues.

Just being there has messed things up for people....even for other Christians I've been trouble for.

I don't even have to try to cause trouble for others. I'm very difficult,been that way since I was little...

There's so much to take in. I'm expected by society to do stuff I can't do. It gets so overwhelming.

So, many in society "get it". Most can walk wherever alone and be just fine,they can drive,they can do ordinary stuff. And they expect the same from me.

I don't understand why just being there...

This is how life is...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Paf82OiEoqg And I don't even go places alone [well I don't have to be with someone if they're in the store]. There's too much to take in. People expect you to stare them in the eyes. I can't do that.  I do this all of the time http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xBlJfoqs0AA And I arm flap and I rock back and forth. I can't help it. Like when I get frustrated and can't find the words to tell the Lord something I tend to say it in body language,like jumping up and down/arm flapping.

I don't understand it. Those in society seem to be able to "get it".

I want to know what is wrong with me. Why do I put a stumbling block in so many peoples' way...

I want to be in the arms of Jesus,the One who understands all of this pain I'm in.