What Do You See?  What Do They See?

The Duke leaned against my car, and it felt kinda’ like an out of body experience for me, because he was talking about me to my two friends I had brought along to the Long Beach prayer meeting.  “I saw her come in, this blonde white woman and I basically thought she was a fraud.  I sat back and listened to her and looked to poke holes in what she said . . .”  Well, that explained the serious expression and dark eyes that I had viewed from my perspective—he was sizing me up, making a judgment about me, even while I did the same, I guess. 

What do you see?  I mean—when you look at people, what do you see?  It is common for us to size folks up in an instant . . . ‘Funny thing is, do you realize that people make snap judgments in the same way about you?

People who live mostly on the streets are often seen en masse, rather than as individuals.  They are labeled ‘the homeless’, and so, many use pseudonyms instead of their real names.  We talked about that.  And then I played the song for them, “He Knows Your Name.”  Several sung along but one older woman sang with an expression of rapturous joy on her face. Shirley, who has few teeth, difficulty speaking and several health issues, looked simply beautiful.  One of my friends cried as she looked at her. 

“Well, here’s the deal—it doesn’t matter what you call yourself, God knows your name, and he loves you.  What does he think of you?  Well, here—read it from his word . . . and answer for yourself’-- Who Am I?  I am a child of God. “But to all who have received him--those who believe in his name--he has given the right to become God's children … (John 1:12).” God loves me and has chosen me. “We know, brothers and sisters loved by God, that he has chosen you…(1 Thess.1:4).” 

“How did you get here—on the street, I mean?” I asked the homeless faces I have come to love.  “Bad choices,” a guy in the back said.  “What do you mean by that?” I asked. All around the room, folks supplied answers, but no real excuses, “alcohol, drugs . . . just bad choices.”   I went back to the guy in the back with the red hat, Curtis—“’want to tell me about yourself?”  “Well all right.  One by one, I finally lost everything--my job, my family, and then my dog . . .”  Guys all around the room were nodding.  They got it.

My heart went to the man with the red hat; what could I give him?  Only one thing.

“You’ve told me your name, Curtis, you’ve told me your story; do you believe God is your father and he wants to answer your prayers?

“Well, I’d like to, but so far my number hasn’t come up.”

I leaned in and asked, “Well, would he recognize you as his child?” 

“Well, I believe in him.”

“You aren’t a child of God just because you were born, you know.  Who leads your life, then—you or him?” 

“I do.”  And of course, with that, I had to use my trusty chair illustration:

“If this chair represents your life, who sits on the throne, making the decisions, Curtis—you or God?”

“I do,” he admitted. 

“You can change that, you know . . . would you like to?”

And with that, we bowed our heads and folks around the room prayed the sweetest prayer that God ever hears.

Oh, my dear friends, I pray that you have the opportunity to connect the hand of

a friend to the hand of God one day.  Nothing matters more than that. 

At the start of our meeting, the guy with the red hat was one of a number of homeless faces.  By the end, I had learned his name and a little about him; he was Curtis, child of God.

As I exited the building, Jackie grabbed me by the arm and said, “Christeeen, tell him there is a God—this man doesn’t believe in God!”  She turned me toward a young Hispanic man with a shaved head, a smurk on his face, and a sneer as he looked at Jackie and then me.  Since I was coming down the stairs, and he was at the foot of them, leaning on the rail, when I got to the bottom, we were almost nose to nose. 

“Perhaps he has never felt the love of God, and so he finds it hard to believe there is a God, Jackie,” I said to her, while I looked into his eyes.  Then he let go with a string of expletives, letting me know he was a bad dude, feared on the streets.  “I wanna be respected and I am.” 

“Do you know God loves you?”

“I can’t believe that, Man….Hell, my mom smokes weed, I smoke weed, we run a business, you know what I mean?”  (Yes, I got it)  “I’ done seven prison sentences already, I’ve been shot, I’ve been stabbed in the leg . . . you wanna tell me there’s somethin’ that’s gonna change me?  I don’t believe it.”  He stood for a minute, and looked around at all the people out on the sidewalk—honestly, no one much was paying attention to our exchange; Jackie had moved away.  He looked back at me.

“’You know—I tried to do it legit…a couple years ago, I had a girlfriend, we had jobs, we rented a condo, and we lost it because of …”  He choked up, turned his head, and said, “I can’t be doin’ this out here.” He wiped his eyes, and said, “I gotta get my homegirl and go down and eat.”  I let him go.

When I got to my car, the Duke was waiting with my two girlfriends.  So yeah, as I walked up, he told them about his first impressions of me.  It was then I realized that while I size people up, trying to guess about them,

            people size me up too—they make judgments about who I am and then

             watch to see how I conduct myself.  So, what do you SEE when you look

            at other people?  And what do they SEE when they look at you?

The bad dude came back out of the building before I got in my car, and I stepped into his path, and hugged him.  I put the notes about who God says he is in his pocket.  I asked him if he had the guts to come back next week so we could talk further.  He pulled back, looked at me and said, ‘Yeah, I’ll be back.  I respect you.’  Hmmm . . . I’ve replayed that in my mind a number of times.  Pray for him, won’t you?  He goes by the name “Quick”.

Jennifer, Adele and I had a lengthy discussion with the Duke.  When it was time to go, I asked him how he would like me to pray for him this week.  “Keep it simple, Christeeen.”  “Okay, I’ll pray that you let Jesus be Lord.”  And he looked at my two friends, and said, “You see what she does?”  (Remember, the Duke had told me he was Jonah, running from God, and it was working for him, until I came along.)  “Will I see you next week, Duke?”

“Yeah, I’ll be here.”  And then that beautiful man turned around to go get some lunch.

What do you see?   And….when people look at you what do they see?

 Christine

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