What a day!

Today was a horrible day at work. There was just drama and screaming and just chaos and most of it came from me. I thought I had this temper of mine nipped in the bud and just calmed down but today.......I don't know what it is about people just criticizing my work ethic that gets my blood boiling. When I am at work I do my job and I do it well and I help whoever needs it and for those people to throw it in my face makes me go crazy. I don't have to help I don't have to be nice but it's not my choice, I'm just that kind of person. No matter how hard I try I can never just not help someone if they need it. Sometimes I even try to look the other way and ignore it but I can't. It's just in my nature to help. I guess it's one of those God-given characteristics that I have heard so much about. I just lost it today and I couldn't hold it back I just went off and I was in a pretty good mood about everything before I went to work. But now I just need to calm down and try to put today behind me because that blow up can never happen again while I'm at work that can't happen period. I think I need some time to myself to just work everything out. I just want to be happy and in a stable relationship and have a good working relationship when I'm at work and not all this drama. But people always talk about you whether good or bad so why give them a reason to talk why even put myself in that predicament of giving them a reason to talk or write me up or try to get me to quit. It won't hurt anyone but me and them talking won't pay my bills or give me money in my pocket. I just need to focus on my God, my Kids and my Self and stop worrying about all these people!!!!! I just want to be a good friend and to have good people around me but all these people around me are just ca-razy to think I'ma sit back and just be used and abused and thrown under the bus.