To my daughter: you are always in my heart.

But, with a court system that sides with a father, and a social services system that enables them, and a society that without error believes in the one-sidedness of any relationship dispute…what recourse is there but to leave?

I will always be there for my daughter. But, should I risk a man who assaulted me, run the risk that he learned his lesson about admitting he assaulted me to the police? I am by far against physical or emotional abuse of any sort, and was my life worth nothing, that I should stay there are take it? What you would say? Get away from him! Now, I am lied about because I left and hear that I abandoned my children without any concern for them, as if they didn't matter? It's so not true!

I begged the court to listen. Even my own attorney turned against me because I had no money and they wouldn't listen.
Does anyone realize I was hunted down like an animal and threatened by this man and because I choose to leave was for my own sanity? Did the hero of the story (the father) turn out as he did because of the influences of his own father? Were the impressions of me a result of his filtered view of history, with the blanks filled in by the father? Or did my children only see their father's view of the story because he was unwilling to see the other side because of his own feelings of abandonment?

Children need their mother. I cannot place myself in a situation where she will assault me again. I received a text message from my daughter saying...I think you should come back here, I need you. It's about time. I can't stand my dad. OK? What could I do?
One of the saddest moments
in my life was when my daughter told me that she did not have a mother; that I didn't even know here anymore. It’s been a few years now and she refuses to forgive me. She says I was not there for her. As to why I was not there, I am not going to blame anyone but myself. God only knows the pain and emptiness that exists in my heart because of it. Should I be asked become homeless, so I can be closer to them? I gave them the choice to come with me and live here. I would have never refused them their father as he has refused me. To my daughter: you are always in my heart.