Still trying

I know that at times I must sound as if I am not thankful for all that I have received from the Lord. Well I am very thankful and grateful for all that I have received all the good and the bad. Yes I say thanks for the bad too because if it had not been for those bad choices or bad outcomes I would have never known how grate and how big is God's love. But there are just times when I am just sad and feel as if there is no hope for my and the thing that pains me the most is that my children must pay for my sins too.  Why must my children have to suffer for what I have done I am trying my very best not to stray and to teach my children about the Lord and I know that God's time is not my time and all of our prays will be answered but it is just so hard at times. All that I am asking is for a little bit of help. I have learn my lesson and I have learned it well. To be able to enjoy the gifts that I have been given I must not spoil these gifts and share them with others who may not have any. I will keep on praying and keep trying to stay on this path and teach my children how to live a life according to how God wants us to live it.