RAMBLING:ABSENT

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Delete Post Edit Blog Posts..In school, years ago, my teacher would have a roll call every morning and each student whose name was called would reply "here" obviously there was silence if a student was absent - well in most cases sometimes a student whose name was called and was present was so busy doodling or reading or simply ignoring the teacher. It would require a second call to that student in order for them to respond. Those whose names had to be repeated got a rather stern look from the teacher. Well...I have been present but "absent" at the same time I just hope none of you are giving me a "stern look" so to speak. For the past few months it has been rather hectic here with work, medical appointments which included a stint in Emergancy in one of the local hospitals. Then there was vacation, being lazy, procrastinating, being a couch potatoe, busy preparing for H1N1 trying to get the vaccine, having stomach flu and the list goes on. Some are valid excuses others not so much. I guess I have been on "burn out" for longer than I thought. I feel like the proverbal ostrich with its head in the sand. As I get older I get discouraged, fed up, frustrated, etc. with what is happening in this World, my country ( and other countries) my city my community and my work I just feel like shutting down so to speak. Then I look at my own life and I try to ignore what is or should I say what is NOT happening and finally I pull my head out of the sand and what is the first thing I see? I see my own reflection and as I look hard and long at "me" all I can say is "oops-I goofed" then I ask myself what am I gonna do about it? Oh yeah...what I started to say at the beginning was though I have been absent I still read many of the emails posted by YOU. I had the urge to respond, to reply...but didn't have the "energy" to do so. You see I find it very difficult at times to respond or reply or whatever because of my "mood" at the time. I do not disrespect anyone here its just me folks. I also find it difficult to say "Please pray for me" its easier for me to ask prayers for others like mfor my friend Donna, especially her latest experience where she suddenly found herself in custody of her 2 month old granddaughter due to a family emergency which has since worked itself out so to speak. I guess if I want to be truly honest with myself and you sometimes it is emotinally draining ( and physically) trying to help others. I wonder if Christ and His disciples felt that way at times or maybe you too. Well its time to go as I need to rest before going in for my night shift. Now you talk about folks having problems all those homeless men I work with. But for the grace of God go I. God bless you all who love Christ.