Psalms 13:3 Look on me and answer, LORD my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death

Dear Lord I thank you for the following,

My father did not look at me for 3 months and then you made him like me now.
In college a guy named britto did not like me at first for telling the Gospel then you made him speak to me nicely.
You save my mother from commiting suicide through a prophet.
In my first workplace people hated me for no reason, then you showed my innocence and made people like me & respect me.
In my second workplace also you made me a respectable guy.
In my third company I failed the aptitude exam in the interview and you still helped me work there.
People put complaint against me in my third company and at last you made them my close friends.
You made my manager respect me inspite of complaining his problems.

Lord you made me meet people whom I thought I would not meet.
Lord I spoke with people whom I thought will not give me a call back.
You made me a close friend and helper for people who I never thought would meet in my life.
Lord suddenly something happened and everything stopped.
Now they hurled insults at me.
They spread rumors about me.
Lord my mind understands they have no respect for me, and they just needed my help.
But why is it Lord I am still thinking of becoming their friend again.
Warn me Lord to stay away if I have to end this thing altogether.
Or warn them to take back the rumors so that I can sleep in peace.
Or tell me Lord that I should die after finishing your project.

God you know me inside out. I will do if I know clearly that is what you want me to do.

Three months back I prayed to you to take my life back.
But you spoke through a person that everything will end in Three months.
If you are the one who spoke to me through him, why am I still struggling.
If you are not then how does a guy from Bahrain knows what was going inside me.

Lord I love you,

I asked you several times about this friendship, you have not told me anything exept Matthew 6:36.
I dont understand you Lord. If I understand I will follow you.

Lord sorry for this prayer I do not know How to pray.
Sorry Lord, save me , I feel I am going to become mad.
But Lord you speak to me when I am disturbed and give me your thoughts though
a sermon, an email or something. and prove you exist and care for me.

Sorry Lord, you have done so many things but often I forget and get depressed.

Help me to be what you want me, Amen