Oooops! I see it now Lord.....

Giving God the praise and glory I finally get the concept of what determines how long we stay in a problem
all depends on how we handle it. The amount of time we stay in the valley is determined by two things. We can either give God the praise and trust in his word or we can choice to cry and grumble. Clearly the second choice is really not a choice at all.
For years I have Prayed God deliver me out of this bad marriage, I trust in you Lord, I know you want all good things for this mighty prayer warrior. I know Lord, and I fully trust in you. A men. Only to wait a few days and step back into the mess I had just ask God to deliver me from.
Why? Did I not trust God to do exactly what he said? Well of course I thought I did. And yet my actions was doing exactly the opposite of what I was declaring I believed in. Trusting God and walking in faith.
Since Christmas I have been taught a valuable lesson. I was praying the wrong way. After spending much time in my closet praying seeking God's face, needing a word from him, talking and then being quite enough to listen for him to give me a word, I see that over and over again God has delivered me out of the fiery furnace just to have me step back in it. I know God loves me, by all rights he should have left me in there. But he didn't. Praise God, he didn't.
This was basically my prayer for the last several years. Dear Lord I know all things are possible through Christ whom strengthens me. But Lord, I'm not telling you how to do your job. BUT.................... I know its not best for me but it would be much easier for me if you just make my husband love me Lord. Make him stop lusting after women. I'm to lazy Lord, to step out in faith and trust that you will take care of me. It would just be much easier if I could just stay in this bad situation, and you change everything around me Lord. A men.
For the past week this is my prayer. Heavenly Father I know I am not worthy to call upon your name. I failed you so many times, and yet you love me just the same. I see my failures Lord, and they have been many. Leave me in this valley Lord until you mold me into what I can be, what you want me to be. Forgive me of my sins, and please forgive my husband Lord, for his. Keep your Holy hand upon him and help him to also seek your face and guidance. As I step out in faith Lord and file for divorce give me your strength to say only things that will edify your Holy name. Help me Lord not to look upon my husbands sins, but to focus only on my own. Give me your strength Heavenly Father to seek a divorce and only seek the things you want me to have. Help me not to be selfish and ask for more than what you want me to ask for. Help me never to look back with an angry or jealous heart. I want and need lord to look forward, walking strait ahead Lord, searching each step for your face. I want to be an instrument for you, Lord. I want to be all that you want me to be. In Jesus's name I pray. A men.