My Testimony

I like everyone else was born a sinner, and I remained a sinner for well over 20years. In that time I have had my own experiences with the world and with the ppl in it.
The day I first really heard about Jesus and the sacrifice he made for all of us and start to believe it. I hadn't before, as I was taught he was a god of vengence and that made me run from him instead of to him. I found out that he wasn't a God of vengence rather he is a God of Love and compassion, kindness, not cruelty as the nuns had us kids believing.
I was 22yrs old and I was hitch-hiking between NSW and QLD. I was in QLD this day sitting on the beach at Surfer's Paradise and I glanced up and noticed this huge black cloud making its way to shore. I had nowhere to stay at the time and I was still living on the streets, when I noticed this man packing away his work equipment for the day. I strolled over to him and asked if he knew of any hostels for homeless ppl to stay at, and He said "he didn't", I was about to walk away, when he called me back and offered his own dwelling as a place for me to stay, if I wanted to or not. I thought about it and like all men I thought he would want something in return for his generosity, but Guess what!! He didn't want anything from me, just my friendship. I was taken aback as no-one had ever treated me with kindness like this before without wanting something in return, so I decided to stay for awhile.
It was during my time there with this person (named Russell) that he taught me and showed me that Jesus Christ died for my sins and that he wants to have a personal relationship with me, at first I was scared, Russell reassured me that Jesus wants me in his family and that he had never left me, even when I was alone, I wasn't Jesus was right there holding my hand and would catch me if I fell. But firstly I had to acknowledge my belief in Jesus and that he did indeed die for my sins. I started to feel sick in the stomach, as it hit me like a rock that fact that here I am a weak-willed sinner wringing about the littlest things when this man named Jesus sacrificed himself so I COULD live. Boy I am so selfish. I even cried about it, the shame hurt that much, learning for the first time that there is actually someone out there that really, really does care about me and wants me to live, and that person is our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ and also that Jesus wasn't someone to run from, but someone to run to.
I now earnestly search the bible continuacy looking for more ways to serve the Lord and keep his commandments securily locked away in my heart and mind. I know what I have to do now, so it is time to act and grow in and with the Lord. I have a debt to the Lord and it is time to pay. "Lord you are my king and the Saviour of my life, thank you for bringing Russell and others to me, so I could meet and learn more about how to serve and make my Lord Happy", I pray this prayer in Jesus name Amen.