My "New walk with the Lord"

I really don't want to sound as a hipocrit, but here it goes. I'm 47 years old, Father of 5, only 1 daughter still remains in the home, a beautiful wife and a beautiful grand daughter who loves me dearly. Lately, I feel like something has changed in my life but I can't get a grasp on it. As my father was getting older and his health was beginning to fail, he started seeking the Lord, and started going to church and now that I' m getting older and my health is beginning to fail I feel the need to do the same thing, like it gonna get me into heaven quicker. I kno, w this sound stupid but in December of last year, I was unemployed, just layed off from a General contractor that did work for a Charity Hospital, Mercy Medical Center, I stopped into the chapel of the hospital and ask Jesus for his help, by January I was working for the Hospital. Now here I'm asking him again for his forgiveness for a stupid error that I made and I'am asking for forgiveness to keep my position at the hospital, I did not try to harm anyone, I was only trying to warn folks about a potential threat, and I was told not to say anything, so now the manager is trying to fire me for releasing confidential information..... I have been praying the the Lord for his forgiveness in the hopes that I can keep my position, and carry his word in my daily activities. I have been saying the " Powerful Novena to the Infant Jesus Christ"

O Jesus, Who hast said, "Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and it shall be opened to you," through the intercession of Mary, Thy Most Holy Mother, I knock, I seek, I ask that my prayer be granted. ( mention your request )

O Jesus, Who hast said, " All that you ask of the Father in My Name He will grant you," through the intercession of Mary, Thy most holy Mother, I humbly and urgently ask Thy Father in Thy Name that my prayer will be granted.

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O Jesus, Who hast said, "Heaven and earth shall pass away, but My word shall not pass away, "through the intercession on Mary, Thy Most Holy Mother, I feel confident that my prayers will be granted.

(mention your request) I believe Jesus will help me with my ordeal, and will speak his word, AMEN. God Bless All who read my Blog.....Spread the word....I intend too....