My journey with God - sat,25-04-2009

This is my journal walking with God in my life. It's all the facts that happened in my life. Some i can feels God with me other time i feel alone. But i understand that God never leave me. Some prayers get answered and some not or still on progress.

Let me introduce my self, my name is Anggie and i've been christians since i was child. I went to a christian school but it doesn't make me christians (Jesus diciples). My family background is Buddhis. My dad, he is a strong faith man. He believe in God and stand firm to what his philosophy is. He believe that we have to do good, religions is nothing if your behavior not good. I don't know if he'd accepted christ in his life. He passed away at the aged 82. My mum is christians, she died young at 46 yrs old. I have 3 brothers and 1 sister.

I am now 38. I married for 5 yrs now. My hubby is Buddhis. My journey with Christ start when i was in Sydney for further study. I still remember that in 1998, there was a riot in Jakarta, indonesia ( my home country). I was in work and cannot go back home. So i have to stay in hotels for 3 days. My father very worried about me. After that incident, i went to sydney and stayed there until 2002. Alone in foreign country make me happy and excited at the beginning. But after that i was lost in the big city. Luckily, God sent his angels as my friends, they are my helper when i lose hope. I also start to go church whenever i can. But my life is not following Jesus. I still go to star city ( Casino) and gambling become addiction. Until i loss all my money and i have to work hard. But i still gambling. I work so hard and loss all the money in a second. My dad passed away in 2002, then i go back. It's like a prodigal son, i come back to my family.

A new start back in my home country. Mu family doesn't know about my darkest moments in my life. They just know that i went to Sydney and finish my course. But they dont know that i once was black immigrant in Sydney cos my visa finish. And i did so many bad things there like gambling, stealing etc.

In 2004, i married with a honest man, He is good and simple man. Actually he not my choice. I was so hurt and just want to get away with all my problem. Sometimes, i feel unfair to him. But we eventually happy in married. It's been 5 yrs now. We havent have any child yet. In 2007, when i am trying to concieve so i went to maternity clinique. I want to do test tube baby, instead i found out that i have cervical cancer. At that time, i dont know what to do. I thought i'm going to die soon. So i think i should prepare my soul. Since then i read bible everyday and spend time be still in GOD. And looks for HIS purpose in my life. Finally , i can see His hands is always protect me. He mold my character to be more like HIM.


December 2007 i did hysterctomy, it's removed all my cervix, wombs, ovary and lymph note. Since then, i'm in remission. I dont know what is my future. Maybe i will die of this cancer, but my life is not the same anymore. Infact i feel more passion with my life now. I know God with me everyday, Jesus is my saviour! My desire now is to share my story so others can finds their own purpose in life.