Lord, is it by Thy will?

I want to be like the brothern overseas. They spread the gospel to people like communists,muslims,budhists and hindus.

Well, something struck me-and it had to be from God since I couldn't ever figure something like this out. Something struck me. Where's the missionary work for the evolutionists/atheists/satanists,mormons and Jehovah's Witnesses? I've seen websites and a show supporting creation. But, where's the on the street gospel people? You know like those overseas. How many evolutionists/atheists/satanists, mormons or Jehovah's Witnesses will ever step foot in a church? That is a church that is still Spirit-filled? Well, if the gospel is kept in church than how are they going to hear it?

Well, I want to be a missionary for America. You hear about Chiniese, Pakistan and other missionaries-but what about missionaries in America for lost souls in the U.S.A?

I'm not sure what His will is exactly though. There's brothern who get trained in the Word before they go out and spread the gospel. Sure, there's Christian colleges here in America(not in the town I live in though) but there a few problems. One of those problems is-it's way too much money! I don't even have a job -_-.  Anyways, I want to be trained in the Word like them. Jesus, if it is by Thy will please find a way...

I don't know exactly what He wants though. Ok, I'm hyper right now.

I want my "unique" behavior to be used for His sake. The hand/arm flapping,the communication disorder..whatever else is in me that's not exactly "normal". Jesus please use it for Your sake.

I need to know where to go from here. How is He going to use me...