Like to be fearless in the love of God

Dear Friends,

I will be 29 years old in few minutes time. I have a little fear in my heart to pray certain things. Fear that God may not be interested to grant me. I personally feel there is nothing wrong in my prayer. But because I faced many negative answers, I am getting used to the habit of not praying will all my strength.  There are several important prayers in my heart this year. The Trust (NGO) I have formed is totally inactive. I am also praying for my personnel life. I am praying for a constant salary. But every time I pray, I am reminded of my past failures. The last 2 years, I prayed and tried as much to to something for the children in my area, but could not get enough volunteers.  Never was I clear about my personnel life choices. When there is desire to go ahead with something, there is someone who takes it away from me. Salary also has been up and down since I am working as a  freelance translator. I want to be free from all sch fears this 29th year of my life. I want to really feel the love of God. Thanks for everyone who prays for me !!! :) :) :)