All About GOD - Growing Relationships with Jesus and Others

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Part 1

Today is cloudy. I have struggled so long with journaling. The cloudy day sort of reflects how I feel about a journal. For over five years I have struggled with health issues. I used to run. Sometimes 5 or 10 miles. I used to lift weights and do aerobic excercise classes. I was a picture of health I guess. However, that would all end and actually that was just the beginning.

I suffered a "mini-stroke" or a TIA one weekend while at home. From that point on my health began a spiral downward that until this day still seems like a carnival ride. Now I'm not trying to gain pity here or anything. There are many,many folks who suffer much greater than I ever thought of suffering. What I am saying is this was not the end for me. It was a beginning. A beginning of my relationship with our God. It took great suffering and fear to get me to finally hear God speaking to me. Oh it didn't happen quickly. No far from that. Actually it is still happening today.

I was back at work after the "mini-stroke" and feeling like a man not in control of much of anything. The vision I had was one of being glad to be alive but wondering just why. Why was I still here? Who am I? Really, just who am I. If the world lost me who what be the reason for my being. So the struggle began and I started taking a long cold look at who I was.

(to be continued). If I can find the courage.

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Comment by Ruel Z Chavez on May 9, 2011 at 3:58am: "What I am saying is this was not the end for me. It was a beginning. A beginning of my relationship with our God. It took great suffering and fear to get me to finally hear God speaking to me." - There was also a time that I thought a certain trial was the end of me. In my limited understanding, that's how I thought. After two years, I realized that that end was actually a beginning of something - a beginning of seeing God as my greatest treasure, not only in words and knowledge but in being and action. I saw myself in your words and for that I am grateful.

"The vision I had was one of being glad to be alive but wondering just why. Why was I still here? Who am I? Really, just who am I. If the world lost me who what be the reason for my being. So the struggle began and I started taking a long cold look at who I was." - I was also asking the same question. Why was I still here? It appears to me that I know but the path is still so cloudy...

Love and Joy!

Comment by Richard L. Broch, Sr. on April 13, 2011 at 1:36pm: Hey Bro,

Look how well you did on a cloudy day.

When the sun comes out, it`ll be Katie, bar the door!

Keep up the good work. Amen.

Grace and Peace.

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