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Comment by feet breath on September 2, 2012 at 7:00pm

Charles B. By His grace I'm better than I was in 8th grade. I was very untrusting. I think I was getting to the point of disliking...possibly even hating people. I was a very bitter teenanger. I was very judgemental and condemning...especially when I was in high school for awhile. The thing is I kept condemning (especially those who were Christian) people in my heart...I don't think I let them know it...God seen it though.

 

So, I haven't completly "let my guard down" but things aren't as tense as 6 years ago.

 

God bless you in Christ,

Feetbreeze

 

Amanda,atleast the Lord uses our suffering to draw us closer to Himself.  I've been reading Tortured for Christ and my VOM devotional. Wow, our brothern have suffered! Yet, they did it with such joy. James 5:10-11

 

Sister,they're proof that we can endure not just with happiness but joy. :)

 

Love in Christ,

feetbreeze

Comment by Charles Burwell on September 1, 2012 at 11:31am

Feetbreeze

 

You are such a treasure. You are so open about feelings and thoughts . I find that many of the things you speak of are things that I have gone through or am even going through now. I smile many times as I read your posts.  Such openess is so rare anymore.

 

I pray that you will just keep letting your gaurd down a little more each day  ( advice I am trying to put into action myself at this time).   I know that it is difficult as I struggle with this issue ( although certainly for different reasons ).  I have seen too much backbiting ( even , or especially , in the church 'family' ).

God is not denying the presence of such activity in the church He is simply trying to teach me to not become a part of it. The best defense against hypocrisy and gossip and unfriendly people is to choose not to join in them.

 

For example , if people are unfriendly I must choose to be friendly . If people want to gossip I must choose to walk away .  Although these things are ( from personal experience ) easier said than done that doesn't excuse me from committing myself to doing them.

 

I also seek the type of fellowship that you speak of and God is trying to get through my head that I have to make a move in the direction of resolving my delima( for lack of a better word).

 

I ha ve found ( through working in a nursery at a church I attended ) that the best way to get to be friends with people ( especially little ones ) is to just give them a hug when they come to you .  It makes a lot of difference in a persons life ( also learned from personal experience ).  Of course this must be done with pure motives. I hasten to add that for those who think that they will be evil spoken of for wanting to do that.

 

I just pray that as you seek to draw closer to God that He reaches out a gives you a great big hug that will warm your entire being.  God bless you , my friend.

Comment by feet breath on August 31, 2012 at 8:12pm

I wish Jack Van Impe had a church in our town...mom and I would both be going!

Comment by feet breath on August 31, 2012 at 5:04pm

When I said I didn't want to bum a ride dad...it'd be different if a friend was living close by. I didn't mean we'd both bum a ride off dad. I meant if a friend had a ride and we'd both go with his/her ride...

 

Atleast in high school I could meet with them pretty much once a month in a club called Alethia....a Christian club...I took that for granted as well.

Comment by feet breath on August 31, 2012 at 5:01pm

Awkwardness is one reason. Another is how do I know if I'll end up in a false church? That and I don't want to have to bum a ride off dad everytime...It'd be different if I had a friend living close by. We could both go together. I'd love if Tiff. lived on this street and we could both go to a true Bible believing church...I miss her. In high school we talked about Jesus together. Sadly, she never got to hear that He saved me. You see He saved me in May the 29th of 2010. I think she was done with West Tests by than and went off to College (I was in 11th,she 12th). I miss her...I'd love to be able to sit down and talk to her about Jesus...I miss those days...