I new this is my story hope it helps

well I did not grow up a christan an fare form it it been a long road and started when I was about 16 years old I started drinking and doing drugs I grow up in a drug home now dont get me wrong I had a great child hood got everthing I wanted parents bot all my cars for me ect... but on my road of drinking and druging I got addicted started to party with my frends at first I was the life of the party, and they wanted me to alawys go , then as time went they still took me to them but they always had to watch me ,an it when from that to they would not evern hang out with me because of my behaviors I would beat up my frends, my perents, my brothers frends and any one eals and not even remember the next day, and would wake up with broozes on me all kinds of stuff and would wonder were they can form so I would call a frend and ask an it was usualy the one I assulted the night before ,I have 2 DWI's 2 hit and runs, and the list gos on ,until one day my perents were on vacation and they left me an my older brother to watch the house for like 4 week
and while they were gone I broak into there room an stole a pound of weed and three hand guns while in a blackout and sold them to a minor/not well known frend along with tools out of my step dads shop well when my perents came home I was in jail for something I did while drunk when I got out and when home I found out what they told me I did with there stuff and told me I had to leave the house I was 21years old by then and they sent me to live in montana with my unkel in hope It would straten me out but I was still drinking to much while an his house and they had a littel girl so I set out on my own and thats when life realy started I was realy homeless! and with no one there for me but me I've been to ever major city in montana and in countless meantal wards for trying to kill my self because I felt so alone and that no one even cared for me not ever my perents I,slept under bridges, in abandon building ,in dumpsters,eating out of dumpster ,until one day in a mental ward in billiong MT. I thought to my self if I want to stop tyring to kill my self I better stop brinking first sence the only time I would try to is when I was drunk so I went from the meantal ward to I 45 day in house treatment center compleated that an when I was done they asked me where I wanted to go ? I told them I dont know any were . some they mentchend an place called SETFREE CHRISTAN MINESTRYS and tI thought shur why not it as good a place as any, see god work in wird ways because that was my first real intro it chist I did not last a month there , and got kick out for not following the rules I was still sober though but I went to the great falls resue mission because they had a christan program there and you could live there free and just go to class every day and study the bibel again god work in wird ways so I did there program and maneged to stay sober 8 months a recored ! I was hooked up with mental health an they maneged to get me my own appt. wow! by this time I was praying every day and reading the bibel on my own will and going to church ever sunday and singing in there chior I was having fun in christ ! and one night when I was in my appt. I convinced my self to go buy a beer alfter 8 months of being sober and not long alfter all my problems came back I one night I was drinking with a frend next door a girl a when I was drunk and blacked out because I blackout every time I drink I grabed her cat by the neck and spit on her floor so she told me to leave, and I tolld her I was going to f@@ing kill her so I went back to my appt. and got a knif and wengt back to her house I thank god every day that she had the door locked when I retured I could not think of the fact if I would of killed her and not even known I did it but while in the procecs of doing that a frend found me and took me to my house and told me to stay in side . it was to late the police were coming by the end I had 3 felonys #1 assult on a police officer,assult with a wepon, and crimenal endangerment and sent 11 month in jail and go a 6 year suspended sentece to prison , an I have to regester as a violent offender for ten years while I was in jail Is natruly when I did I most praying and I started praying for god to take the want the urge and the need to drink from me and he did but the on thing I tell people when I give my testomany is that god will do all that for you but it a two way road becaues he cant take the bottel from you hand we have to do that