I have to finally admit this...

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Comment by feet breath on November 12, 2012 at 6:02pm

Thanks sister, that got me to smile. You're right I didn't know he was allergic. I just knew he was hungry. That does help a little,thanks. I'm just glad he didn't die.

Comment by feet breath on November 12, 2012 at 5:52pm

Wow, I didn't expect to open up a little more about when I was 2.

 

I feel like crying so much...I have so many flashbacks happening at once. The bullies only played a role in it. There's so much that has happened.

 

 

Comment by feet breath on November 12, 2012 at 5:44pm

Hi. I know He has. :)

I guess that's one of the things I've buried deep inside myself. I've surpressed it.

 

I blame myself because I'm the one who gave him those chips. You know what? It does feel atleast a little better to tell somebody. I don't think I ever even told my parents or anyone in the family.

 

Oh, sister I feel like crying so much...I guess I feel like crying because I'm not surpressing things like I did. I'm finally starting to talk about 17 years worth of pain. Honestly though...as I remember more and put that together with what mom has told me...

 

I realize life wasn't even normal when I was 2. That would be like 18 years...

 

The neighbor loved to yell out her door about something I really shouldn't get into discussion about...trust me it wasn't normal. It deffintly wasn't a normal situation...

 

My uncle ruined something that belonged to mom. It's too humilaiting to say what he did to it...

 

I ended up in the hospital though...My cousions kept taking my food. My parents didn't know. They gave me the food and behind their backs my cousions ate it. So, I ended up in the hospital. I remember laying in the bed. The walls were pink and there was bars on the bed. My parents have always fed me good. They just didn't know what my cosions were doing during that period of time...