I feel so empty

Comment

Comment by feet breath on November 10, 2013 at 4:31pm

Thank you brother,you made me smile. ^_^

Comment by a servant (Chris) on November 9, 2013 at 7:34pm

Sister

I want you to know that you are NOT ALONE!!  So very many people Love and Care for you.  That said, we all go through "feelings," as you are sharing.  It is at these times that we move in closer to God, we dig into The Word.  We spend time in Prayer and Praise.  If we need to remind ourselves of just one thing, let it be that we are Loved by The Creator of All things.  That in and of Itself is the Knowledge that, can get us through these times.  Feet breathe Give Yourself a break, and try not to be so hard on yourself.  What you go through with the JW's, so many of us would not be able to do that.  God has made you so much Stronger that you know.  I have felt the same as you have shared, at times.  Slow down a little and truly "breathe."  Let calm; let His Peace surrounded you. 

Comment by feet breath on November 8, 2013 at 9:30pm

I realize I’m don't have editing time [for my post below] but I put a sentence I shouldn’t have. “Well,I don’t cherish the memories I have before I was 3 I cherish because that was before the pain started.” Not don’t,I meant do. That means I would have put that twice though.

Comment by feet breath on November 8, 2013 at 8:39pm

Praise God! Dad did apolijize. He said he didn't know what I was doing when I asked. He than said it.the litter pan,did stink. Than he chuckled. Good to hear him laugh. God is good!

This song helps as well http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fiBn6mPjvG0

Comment by feet breath on November 8, 2013 at 8:14pm

I forgot to add that this song helps http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hHcVTbyJqis

Comment by feet breath on November 8, 2013 at 8:13pm

The Lord is getting me through this.

I'm to the point I am letting go of my life and looking to Heaven. For it is only there I will be freed from this pain.

 

No,I'm not suicidal. Last night though [I can't say what happened,too hard to talk about] made it to where I've had it with this pain. Ever since I was no older than three things went wrong. I've been screamed at for stupid reasons,I've been made to feel like it was better for others if I was never born. I've gotton in trouble even when I didn't do anything wrong or it wasn't as big of a deal as they made it. More than a few times my life has been threatened and things I can't even talk about. A few teachers,a few friends when I was in school,family and obviously bullies had made me feel like I'm the lowest person on the planet. Like my Uncle Jim said last year at a family gather,something we never have,that he couldn't get a word in edge wise because of me. The problem was others were talking but only I got blamed.

 

This pain I have has been going on for the last 18 years. The few memories I have before I was 3 I cherish because that was before the pain started. Well,I don't cherish the memory of the neighbor in the big yellow dress screaming at us when I was 2 but that's another story.

 

I realize I need to finally not worry about what will happen to me for following Christ.

 

I've been holding onto my life and afraid of what could happen if I fully follow Him.

 

I feel like I'm not holding on now to life though.

 

When I came back from putting this on the computer...I had to help change the litter pan before I could add anymore. I asked dad to help me move Ms. Kitty since she was in front of the door. I got screamed at. Not the first time...

 

It's best just to serve God and to serve others. That and to not hold onto my life. That way I can run this race and not look to an earthly hope. My hope is Heaven. And it will be only there that I will see Jesus and finally be in no more pain.