I can't hold this in any longer...

I'm remember stuff that has been lodged so deep into my soul. I forgot about this until very recently. I remember it wasn't only being asked if I shaved my legs...I was also told I need to wax my eyebrows....this came from my friend. That was common though to be told/asked about shaving my legs and waxing my eyebrows. It was kind of common like when a boy used to say call me nappy hair. Ether I'm going delusional or...I think  atleast one time he even made up a little song/jingle about "nappy hair"[a.k.a my "nappy hair" he made it up about].

Anyways as for my eyebrows... I think atleast once I was told I have a unibrow[not sure who said it though]. Oh, the days of junior high...

I even remember the note/letter my friend gave me during 6th grade west test. Something about shaving my legs and wearing short skirts from what I remember. I never got to take that home to my parents. For she took it back off me and wouldn't let me have it back.

I can't hold this in any longer. I'm literly shaking right now. I can feel my body trembling a little bit. I've held this in for way too long... It was 7th grade in science class. I don't even know if I ever told my parents about it...

I remember sitting there. I can't confirm it...but I thought I heard my friend tell me something like "I hope you die." I still remember she looked me in the face as she said it. I told her I wanted her to repeat it. She refused. Now I can't be 100% sure but from what I heard her say it sounded so close to something about me and dieing...Thank you for letting me finally get that off of my chest.

Last Sunday I told "Maria" [the one who takes me to church] about 6 years ago this month. The story of Josh and threatening me with a pencil. She sounded very shocked while she was listening. Although I didn't tell her that I went into a deep depression afterwards...nor did I tell her I inflicted self harm and attempted suicide on the bus. But wow does it ever feel good to tell somebody even just a little of what is hurting so much...