I can hardly contain myself...

Ok, a couple of my uncles [two of dad's brothers] came to visit today.

I was suspicious when Uncle L. mentioned during his last visit...I think he thinks that being born again is like a cult [he has said he's a Christian though].

Well, today he and uncle J. came to visit.

L. said this. Aunt P. [his sister] told him you have to be sure you're saved so you don't go to Hell. My uncle told us [my parents, uncle J. and me] that you just can't tell people they're going to Hell.

I remember there was just mainly some regular discussion but sometime around that time of my uncle saying that my dad said only 144,000 are going to Heaven [yes I know that's not in the Bible but atleast they were talking].

I'm excited because I didn't know my aunt was trying to talk to him before [I don't know if she still is though]. That and there was atleast some kind of discussion on such importent subjects.

As for Uncle J. I'm not sure if he's saved although by the way he talked...Please keep them in your prayers...

Anyways, I've been reading my VOM devotional. It seems like ever since I started reading VOM books on testimonys from the brothern [I think it was last March or early April when I got my first VOM book ["Foxe's book of Martyrs"] on testimonies on those who have faced persecution for Jesus' sake]. One day I read a testimony, I think his name was Sunday Nache Ache. He died for Jesus. Something changed in me after that...The Holy Spirit started something I'm not sure how to describe. I mean He planted the seeds on my heart to start caring JWs back in last March and April. My heart hardened again later on but He opened it up again. I think sometime after that is when I read about Nache.

The Holy Spirit used love to open up my heart again. I was on fire for Him again. I was scared though...scared of the JWs. He comforted me and helped me find a VOM 365 days a year devotional. That helped me. I think that was probably sometime in June or July.

He's "introduced" me to gospel tracts. He's opening my eyes more and more to the need of sharing the gospel.

And than there was today. I seen the great need of my uncles and naturally my parents need Jesus,too.

He's opening up my eyes. I read the stories of the brothern...loving their enemies,rather be persecuted than deny Jesus...such strong faith. That is the kind of faith I want.

He's opening up my eyes to the lost. I've read many stories of selfless behavior from other believers. They risk it all inorder to get the gospel out to the lost.

I want that kind of attitiude. To be more worried about getting the gospel out to the lost than to care about my own needs. And if [when] persecution would come by that the Holy Spirit would give me the courage not to deny Jesus no matter what.

I'm absoutly so excited right now. I so want to be used by Him.

Wow? To have the kind of faith...

pray for those who would be persecuting me. To show love and not bitterness.

And if the time would come and I'd be told to deny Jesus...I'd rather face the consiqences [whatever that would be] of confessing Him than to know that I denied my Lord.