How God works with me

I want to start by saying often I feel like I am a lost sheep who has gone astray and I hate that feeling. But yet, in that deepest sadness my heart feels, God seems to always let me know He has never left me or gone astray from me and He is always there for me and wants me back with His flock. I will pray often before I open my bible especially if something specific is on my heart and always I open by bible random at times after my prayer and always there is a referance to my hearts question. I have prayed many times before work and on my christian radio I play in my car it seems that the preacher is talking about what is on my heart. Then I arrive at work and someone at the work place will say something that also relates to what I am going through. Then, someone will just hand me a track and that too will also be related to the same topic. I know this is God reaching out to me in so many ways. When I am closer in my relationship with God I can see and hear Him so much better. No, its not an audible voice but yet I know it is God who is speaking to me in ways maybe I know how to understand. I had an experience that I know was God and I want to share it with you all and perhaps some of you have a similar experience you can share also. About a year ago I was really struggling with some things in my life and when my husband left for work that day I went to my closet where I often go to be with God alone to pray. I kneeled down and got as low as I could get to the ground and was just praying and sobbing and pouring my heart out to my savior and my father our Lord jesus Christ when without knowing why I held up my arms in the air toward the sky, clasp my hands together and truly yelled Help me God! Please help me Jesus! I had not been to church in a long long time and had decided that day I was going even if I had to go alone I was going. When I had finished my prayer the time was almost to where I would miss the service and my mind actually tried to tell me Not to go that it was too late. I knew that was satan lieing to me even after I spent that time with God Satan still tried to keep me from going to church. I went anyway, and yes a little late. This is the great part I want to share with you all. As I was sitting far back in the pew due to I was late and it was crowded that day and listening to the preacher all the sudden he Clasp his hands together and held his arms up to the sky ( the exact same way I had done when begging God to help me but not knowing why I did that) and said " we all need to ask God to bound us with His Holy Spirit". I know that was God telling me what I need to do. God was speaking to me. I wanted to stand up and praise God and just yell out in the church how great God is but yet I did not do any of that but held it inside instead for fear of what the people might say or think due to I don't even know if this is allowed in that particular church. I wish I would have followed what my heart had told me to do instead of sitting quietly and not muttering a word. But even still I praise God for allowing me to experience this and my heart still leaps for joy in knowing how He will work in so many ways. I love Jesus with all my heart and I thank Him for sending me this site to help me to grow closer to Him with the help of other christian brothers and sisters. All Glory and Praises to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!