Greatest Moment of my Life

In June of 1993 I gave birth to a beautiful little girl. The delivery was difficult and because she was backwards I had to have a C-Section. Complications arose and I had to be completely sedated. I vaguely remember waking up, I was strapped down, very disoriented, afraid, and in severe pain. However, the only thought in my head was "Where is my Baby?". I could see the lights over my head as they rolled me from the delivery room to the recovery room, I was crying very hard and still hadn't seen my daughter. Then I heard her cry. I immediately asked if I could see her. The nurses placed her in my arms and our eyes met we both stopped crying and time stood still. A bond was formed that day, a bond so strong that it could have only been created by God himself, mother and daughter bonded with love in our hearts for life. I never expected anything to break that bond. As time went on she grew and our lives changed. As life has its way to turn ugly it did. I found myself getting a divorce and becoming a single mom. I did the best I could for my daughter, but it was tuff even then. I loved my daughter more than anything in this world and when faced with the threat of an ugly custody battle I was forced to give her up. This was the toughest decision I have ever had to make and it broke my heart in a million pieces. Over the next eight years I worked very hard to better my life and get my daughter back. I met a man, (my current husband), and we had a family, my daughter remained a big part of that family even though visitations were very limited. Even though she lived with her father she remained a very big part of my life, heart and soul and our bond remained strong. The year she turned 13 she came to live with us. This was the moment that finally made my life complete. The empty black hole in my heart was filled and everything was right in our lives. The next two years were filled with love, happiness and joy. I never expected that an evil entity was lurking in the shadows for the perfect moment to destroy our happy home. Then, it happened. My family was once again torn apart. I put my daughter on a plane to go back to live with her father and my heart once again had a gaping black hole, empty and scared that our wonderful bond had been tainted, forever changed, and possibly broken. Both her and I did not know if we would ever be the same. Two years passed and though I spoke to my baby girl on the phone it was not the same as having her here with me. I never expected her father to let her come here again, but God has a way of touching a person's heart and her father allowed her to come visit for the Holiday season. I did not know this was an option, and even though it was what I truly wanted for Christmas this year, I didn't think it possible, and had no idea that it was in the works. On December 18th we were invited to some friends for dinner. I walked into their home and made myself comfortable like usual and then I heard this quiet voice say "Hi Mom". Again time stood still and in that moment all the bad things that had happened in our lives were erased and God's gracious love restored the bond he had formed 16 years ago between a mother and daughter. The black hole was filled and my heart and soul were once again complete. I know I have to let her go back in a short time, but for this moment that she is here I am not going to let anything go wrong. My life will be perfect from now on because I will know that no matter where she lives she will always be my daughter and a part of me will always be with her and her with me. This has been the greatest Holiday Season ever. I thank God so much for his love and remarkable way of making everything turn out as it should. I hope you all have fond memories of this Holiday Season, and have a wonderful New Year. God Bless you and love you always.