Finding the way.

In all my life I never thought I would be where I am today, how I am here. Let me tell you something, people..I went through that wild teenager stage. As a teen living with my grandparents I thought they were just HORRIBLE to me. They made me go to bed at a decent time, they were strict, and they made me go to CHURCH! I had to work when I was old enough, and pay money to put aside for a car! Horrible, right? Wrong. I thought I had it so bad because I wanted to be the ruler of my life. The truth of the matter is, my grandparents were trying to install important life traits in me. They were trying to HELP me. --But, you know..typical girl I was off partying and doing all sorts of things against what they asked. I spent all the money they had saved for me..I moved out, started getting credit cards and doing what -I- wanted to do because I thought I was smart. Yea, smart, sure. I am now twenty-three years old and am just now getting my life in order. I came to realize that my grandparents were not the villains. You know why? I would have had a car, a safe place to life, and an excellent start to life..but I just had to party. So here I am at twenty-three JUST NOW getting my first car, and working my toosh off to get my driver's license.  I got my GED about a year back after having quit High School due to breaking my back. And now, I am a college girl. I am finally on the road to getting my life in order..late, but I realize now what I did wrong the whole time. Doubt. Doubt is a killer. I doubted my grandparents, I doubted myself..and I doubted God's plan for me. My life was about me, the here..the now..the feel good. That was the whole shabang. But, you know what? I was wrong to turn my back on my family and wrong to turn my back on God. It is because of him that I am where I am now. I woke up one day and God grabbed me by the shoulders, shook me, and said, "Wake up, it is time." It is time to grow up..no more childish bouts of drinking and stupid feel good..no more thinking the world and God are out to get me..It is time to be a big girl, and do it right--trust in God..as he has trusted in me to change and become the person he knows I am. I thank Jesus everyday for waking me up..showing me the real world and what -I- was meant to be. He is truly a savior..