Father always in control

When we are going through circumstance in our lives , we normally asks, how long will it continue? You get into a quizz with yourself and the Father, asking Him what have I done, what must I do and how long will it be before You help me? And what we actually have to learn is, seek His face, His will, grow in our relationship with Him, for when these things become important in your life, nothing else matters and He can actually starts working in Your life and starts fulfilling His purpose in your life.
This was a learning curve for me.
For a long time my life seems totally upside down and I made wrong decisions and felt the consequences of my wrong decisions. I went to Father and asked HIm what I must do for I am seeking a miracle in my life. I was taken back to the scripture, Seek first the Kingdom of God.... and I wondered but I tried that... but sense the the feeling ,LIVE IT!!! And my journey began.......!
I started last year really seeking HIs face, fasting, ministering in sundayschool, giving more time to my Father, everything I do, HE was asked first.
Dont think the enemy left me alone for one moment!!! Oh no he hated that and just give more hick ups in my life(no job satisfaction,financially ruined,unhappy and depressed childen,health problems,2nd divorce)... but it just made me persistent to go on!! I went to my pastor, with my children, asked him to pray for us, and while he was praying for me he gave me Ps 126 as a scripture to pray over my life, and from that day onwards that Psalm was part of my prayer life... seeking Gods face more and more...
November last year my previous boss asked me to work for him again, but he said I must first pray about it. In my heart I know exactly what I would like, for I would work for him anytime, he is a child of God, have a good heart and is a very special person and I would love it! but... is that in Gods will???
So here starts a new concern, and I asked God please give the wisdom to do the right thing!!! I asked a friend of mine to interceed with me as well, but I didnt tell her what it was about just that I have a decision to make. After a few days she sends me the following vision:
She said:
Dear Fienie,

I see a a black metal trunk with a chained wrapped around it and it is floating in water in dark waters, with the bottom half of the trunk submerged and the top half out of the water, which I sense is the indecision. As the trunk opens the word YES appears with nothing else inside the trunk. What I sense from this vision is that the answer is yes and that this is in regards to moving. I pray this helps with your next move.

We continue to call forth the purposes of God in your life as well as your children. When I think of your children, I see the number three and think of unity. We believe God for the unity in your household in Jesus name!

Walk through the waters.

Your friend.

And I thought, wow, and now.... And I said Daddy I need now scripture to confirm this... For at that stage I couldnt see myself moving, new place... it cost a lot of money....which is the major problem... for I didnt even have maney in the bank!!!And i said Father if this is in Your will, I know You will make a way... but at first I want confirmation out of the Word.....
During prayer time I received Joshua 1 to read, at first I didnt want to read it for I thought I know that scripture! After a few days I asked again please Father I need confirmation and it was if I could hear Him said to me, I gave you Joshua to read, what do you want more.. And I thought isnt this just my own thinking... but again I had the urge to read Joshua and I said: Ok Father, I will and there was my confirmation!!And I said Okay Father I will move through this Jordan... although I feel like that metal trunk, with nothing inside.. for physically I had nothing and I gave it over to Father to handle.
And what followed just left me speechless...
By the grace of Father, my relocating costs was all paid, as well as the deposit for my home, the school cost for my son to start a new school and his books and clothes!!
Well i am now staying in a new place, new beginning and I know that through God s grace this was made possible. HE blessed me with new "old" boss, who is a wonderful person, who has respect for me as a person and to put the cherry on the cake I do not have long working hours, so I can have more time on my hands to spent with my kids and ministry work!
Ya some will say but is this an advantage for me and did it improve my overall wellbeing?
Oh yes when God made things happen He definitely has something more instore coming up. I took the first step as He opened the door and I can only believe that this is the beginning, for my Daddy never give up something He has started.
Although everything is still in baby shoe status, I know that this is the beginning of many more to come.
Will the enemy leave me alone,certainly not, for he hated it if God wants to bless us, but I can remind him of what my Father did and that I am under His blood and that Father opened the door for me,when He opens a door, no man can shut it! The word God gave me in Joshua is now my Word I have to stand on, meditate on the Word and dont let the Book of law depart from my mouth. I must be strong, vigorous and very courageous, not afraid , neither dismayed for the Lord my God is with us wherever we go.
Is it easy? Oh no, not in our fleshly bodies, but through the strenght of Christ in me, yes it can be.
Am I afraid? Honestly yes I am(especially physically and financially, life in the city is no cheap and easy one!!!), but then I reminded myself of what Father can do, He is JEhovah Jireh!! and then I know that I know that I am in His capable Hands.
Am I looking forward? Yes!!! I cant wait to see what my Daddy is going to do next in my life, for it is a desire in my heart that miracles will flow in and through my life, so I can be a living proof of the goodness and mercy of a miracle working God!!
Have I learned something?
Yes... learn to trust Him more and do not stand in the gap in your life, God wants to work, time is of the essence and we need to fulfill our destiny God has planned for us, dont postpone, start your journey today!
May GOd bless you all and may you experience His love and tenderness an be filled with unspeakable joy!