Convo with God 1/22/10 I was very frustrated with life at the time lol

Dear God,

I am so upset with myself I cant believe I just failed a quiz and as for my mae class I cant believe I am falling behind why is it going this way I am not satisfied with my academic performance and I want to do well
ughhh I cant take the way I am I truly need to be fixed I am angry with myself
I hate this I hate this school systm

Calm down

God you see what I am going through

So you already know what to do

I know but ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Can I am frustrated I am mad I am angry I am upset

What is making you feel this way?

Well first off I hate the way the education system is it sucks it pisses me off

I hate having to go through this system of education just when I thought everything was making sense everything just flips

Stacey will I ever give you something that you cannot handle

No lord

Then why are you complaining and do something about it

I cant

Why

One I don’t have the right writing skills I need help with it I guess

No you don’t I have provided you with everything that you need

I understand but then why do I h

Its not about you, you need to do what I am calling you to do

What is that lord god

I want you to challenge people

Why I am scared

With me you can overcome anything

Lord god why am I going through tthis

You asked me to break you down to make a better you

I want to create something better in you

So you think that me missing this quiz and getting called out in my section and not being able to participate because I did not read for classes is a way to get me to realize what I am doing wrong ?

I am an angry student

I hate this system I am not satisfied

Why do talk in such a way

cant you see I am struggling and I need youre help

I cant do this

What did I tell you before that I am here with you always I am the omega all things are possible through me

Stacey, I have a plan for you a wonderful plan for you do no fear what is coming to you now be strong and endure I believe in you and you believe in me

I am always you support you know what I do not have to believe in you because I already know

I already know what is in store for you

Lord god you know how I failed the phil class

Yes

Even though I did not pass the class I still feel like I learned a great deal and I had a great time just getting back in touch with my friend number two

Do you see why things are the way they are even though the outcome of something may not be the way you like it doesn’t mean its not a good thing

That is very true

Now lets see were you not so angry awhile ago about missing the quiz grade?

Yes I was and I was veery upset with myself because it made me think of the flaw

How were you reacting when you miss that quiz?

I was throwing a tantrum

I cant believe the way I was reacting lord o mgahh

Now you have drove this idea of condemning yourself out

What did I do to you

You challenged me and I failed

You did not fail you have learned from it

And what did you learn

I learned to not be so harsh and unloving on myself and to not blame

Now earlier that was not the righteousness that I like to hear

Yes I know

Are you still angry no

How r u feeling

Well in my head I still don’t like the system but as for the anger it is gone

My child do no become frustrated with what earth has placed upon on

You are a princess and nothing shall keep u unsatisfied I want to love you and I want to show you love

Now this ading of yours she is good one I like her she has a lot of knowledge about me but yet I think she still needs to practice what she learns so that she can give examples
for what she teaches that comes from her own life

That I have planned for her

How what about what happened in your section class

Well I was trying to explain Americas justification on colonizing land and saying it is for the benefit of their land

Lord god why do I have to go through these obstacles?

You already know the answer

To get closer to me

Go to bed and rest tmrw you shall have a productive day now that you have cleaned up and have clean clothes and are ready tmrw you shall begin

Goodnight my darling child I love you and sleep well receive my blessings

Goodnight god I love you! =]