A gloomy christmas

Why is this christmas so gloomy? I wonder if its still "joy to the world ". But I still don't understand why I would lose my dad few days to christmas. Like that wasn't enough . Now I wonder why my friend, whom I call my baby brother, lose his mother on a christmas night. I mean few hours ago. Where does my consolation come from ? Though I strongly refuse to ask God why, I still believe it's not his will. But then it's well with my soul.