The Winds of Change

Things are always changing. Sometimes it is fun and exciting, but sometimes it is painful and maybe a little scary. My life is going through some major changes right now.. I'm not sure what the future holds but I know that God is leading and that He has a purpose. If I take my eyes off of Him my circumstances look daunting, but with my eyes securely set on Him it is easy, just to allow the Wind to blow me where it will. But I am afraid, this is the first time I've had so much to "lose?". In the past with change it only affected me and I could go freely where the Lord leads. But now I have a son and a daughter. Will I be tested like Abraham? To be asked to sacrifice that which is most precious to me? Can I pass the test as Abraham did, not knowing the outcome but trusting in His love for me and His love for these precious lambs? When they are your biological children it would never be considered, of course God would not ask you to give them up to strangers - but when they are children of your heart and not of your flesh? What then? Am I asked, expected to lay them down before God trusting His will - whether He gives them back or takes them and leaves me asking "Is God enough?" Can I be content in Him? Willing to go where He sends me.... the Wind is Blowing and in God I do trust. He is enough, though my heart may break. I trust Him. I have to. He is the One who made me and saved me, and without Him I am and have nothing. God I trust You. I lay down those I love dearly, those You have "loaned" me. You know the love I have for them, the ache that is in my heart at the thought of losing them. Guide me, Lord. Direct me. Help me to listen for Your still small voice - that I may know with assurance that I am in Your will. I love You. In You I am content.