Who is the "SELF"?

I am 37 years old and cannot answer this question that has been asked of me as well as, "what makes me happy". I have spent my life being posed by the spirits of OPP (other peoples' purposes, problems and plans for me); the spirit of the do-do (do this, do that, doing for my parents, doing for my children, doing for my friends) until I have nothing to do for myself.

Now that I am in the prime of my life and my children are old enough to do for themselves, my friends married or doing them now; I have no idea who I am anymore. I don't know who mySELF is; thus, how can I have an esteem?

In church yesterday Pastor stated she remembered twice in her life hearing her mother say she was proud of her. Which got me thinking all evening words that were said to me throughout my life by my parents, family and others.

You're never going to be anything.
You're going to be an alcoholic like your father.
You're stupid.
You're a slut, tramp, etc.

Over time one stops and questions who am I? Are these things true? Then you fall into the devils trap in believing all these things and doubting your SELF worth and your potential.

Today I challenge all to discover who the "real you" may be and if there is a difference between the "real you" and the "current you."… Look at the man in the mirror and ask, "Am I who God created me to be or am I a lie that the devil has been telling me I am?"

Right now as I look in the mirror, I know this is not neither who nor what God intended for my life.

TODAY, APRIL 7, 2008, I Rena LaCharn Seward, am taking my life back. I'm taking what the devil stole from me. I'm taking back my territory.