A real day in the life...

I wish I could juggle everything better. I wish I had a better memory/attention span. The school-age daycare program sent me a letter saying I was cut off because of late payment. I am having trouble working full-time, raising a happy, healthy daughter (my son lives with my mom) and paying bills with money orders or a load yourself credit card, cleaning and cooking and being tired! My daughter wants me to work part-time again and I am tempted. She'll be entering 4th grade and we don't really have the time or energy for homework after a long day. I've tried to get her to do it at her afterschool program but she says its too distracting. I recently tested in the pre-diabetic range for blood sugar and would really like to keep my health insurance, though. My boss has just had another person quit and has written out the schedules a month ahead of time for corporate and I don't want to let her down. I would have to wait a year and a half to get back on MinnesotaCare, the insurance for the low-income. My daughter has insurance through her father. I could still afford her dental, maybe. Her father is court ordered to carry it but doesn't. Oh yeah, and I am on antidepressants, although I rationed them out before when I didn't have insurance for nine months. I wish I could find a job that pays a living wage. And I have a college degree. Maybe I will just take a short rest and continue cleaning the townhouse (section 8, rented) since I am actually getting something done for once. Sorry this is so negative and not real Christian. Love, Kathy