Feet breath's Blog (165)

I desire to....

I want to talk to others about Him! Not in fear because others believe He's an angel but just because He's Jesus!

I don't want religous talk. I know being religious doesn't help...religion trys to make oneself(I've tried that before He saved me, it doesn't work) rightous but true rightousness only comes from God!

I want to be freed from fear, torment, confusion and deception.

I want to be like a little child…

⁵ For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning. (biblegateway, KJV)

Ok, as my last post on my last blog tells I wasn't having a very good night. But, praise God things are atleast a little better.

I cried this morning in bed. Guess what song came to mind? Amy Grants "Carry You". I think the Lord used to to…

It's my fault. If my mom joins the JW, it'll be my fault.

You see, I'm the one who invited the JW in the first place (they came when I was on Summer Vacation right before 1oth grade). I know it would have been worse if the JW who came last fall would have been the one to start a bible study though. Since, I probably wouldn't have been very prepared or even bothered to research much about the JW if it wasn't for the previous JW people.

But, still, it'll be my…

I'm wondering if I'm spirtually depressed or if this situation has caused be to be phyiscally depressed. Ether way my heart is filled with sorrow. It hurts to know there's people who are controlled and will refuse to listen because they're slaves to men.

Fear is paralyzing, worry makes it worse. Knowing talking to people around will only make things worse. Not knowing what to say to Jesus. It's bad enough not being good verbally but when life has the mind paralyzed as…

It comes to my mind....can my life really make a difference? It comes to mind especially when I look through pictures of when I was little. Knowing...I could have been aborted...death tried to get me many times...suicide wanted to take my life (I even looked at a bottle of pills during that time in 8th grade and thoughts of suicide went through my head). But, praise be to God I'm still here. Seeing pictures of a little baby on her first birthday, getting kissed in front of a laundrey mat by…

I know I've said I'm afraid of the elder and intimidation. But, I think God has shed light on this situation.

I'm afraid I'm not going to be able to answer them (especially on the deity of Christ). I'll make Christ look bad and I'd be totally humiliated in front of the people for not knowing the right answer.

So, as the truth has/is being revealed I'm not as scared (still a little atleast though).

 pray God sheds more light on this issue and…

Ok, I have to open up...what happened in 8th grade. Opening up helps.

My mom told me don't go into chatrooms when I was younger. Well, when I was in 8th grade guess what I did? I went into a chat room on Skype. I thought he was my friend. Well, he asked for something personal, I think he wanted to know what state I lived in. I think I may have told him. I was only like I think 15...

What scares me is when I think I was hesitant he told me I guess we're not…

Ok, God has something good going. Praise the Lord!

The comprehension for connecting to others in my brain is wired differently. I don't have comprehension like most folks. There's others who would rather talk and interact with each other. I'm not that way. I'd rather study people than talk to them.

Anyways, I'm trying to find out more info. To know more about what other humans are like. You see I'm studing the body, anatomy, but I realized in my…

:sighs: Ok, I realize now persecution isn't the really big problem (although it's still an issue), we as Christians have to face persecution for what we believe. With Jesus' help I can face any persecution the devil trys to throw at me.

:sighs: I now realize though that I'm not firm in my beliefs. I believe Jesus is God but there's questions that the JW will tell me that I don't know how to respond to.

For ex. If Jesus is God how come He said only God is good?…

Ok, I hope...maybe atleast someone can relate to this.

Things seem to be going great. But, than life collapses.

When your faith is numb.

When you know there's loved ones in trouble and you can't even speak.

When life piles up so much. When you hear the Holy Spirit keep bringing up 2 Corinthians 12:9 but your spirit, heart, ears and mind have grown numb.

When the stress of life causes your body…

I was outside, spotted a butterfly and had to take some pictures. It came over and landed on the top of my shoe. Unfortuntly, it flew away before I could take a picture on my shoe and (don't know if it was the same one) later on one flew on my sweater, close to my stomach (unfortuntly it went away before I could take a picture during that time as well). But, I did get to take some pictures, here's one on the flower for the 1st butterfly. Anyway, they say God works in mysterious ways. Well,…

Ok, I read in my "Cup of Comfort for Christians" a little girl prayed for, I think it was an easy bake oven. Christmas came and she didn't get it. Years later she got it (as an adult).

I figured it worked for her. So, I prayed for a Kimi (off of Rugrats). I had a Kimi car from burger a long time ago but that's been gone. Anyways, this character is very hard to get. Yesterday, I went to a coin and hobby shop. I looked to see if I could find one. There it was! God answered my…

I don't know how to invite friends so I have to blog this.

razakabass, I'm sorry I exited out of your chat thing. I'm just not allowed to go into any chatroom.

I guess this blog could be about forgiveness, that we all need it. What does anyone else think?

but am I equal to other people? The question is more complicated than it looks for me.

Am I less than other people? Why do I get treated with respect here, treated like a person? Am I a person?

I've thought about it before. I don't know what it's like for the most part (aside from mainly internet Christians and certain people and some people who taught me (the one who grabbed my arm is nicer now, praise God!) I don't know what it's like to interact with people…

Ok, I realize there's a problem. I suffer from bathroom phobias. I've had it for many years. I tried taking it, you could say "a bathroom at a time". I pray no one comes in until it's safe. The root of the problem is still there. And, I keep the fear hidden for the most part within my heart.

Talking about what's happened helps though. I remember in junior high there was a stall but as far as I know there wasn't a lock. A girl I knew opened the door on me...(I know I did that…

I've had this problem for most of my life. I have a hard time fitting in with others. Sure, I've had friends...but I'm more isolated from others. I've gotton worse over the years it seems. Now I want to fit in but I'm just so different. I view people differently than others view other human beings. It's difficult to explain.

It's like there's a barrior between me and the rest of mankind. I don't know how...God knows but I still need to know...how can I possibly make a…

Ok, here is my testamony. Beware though-it is long! :)

It was either late 1991 or early 1992 when mom was told there were other methods. Since, she was sick she could use "other methods" for her pregnency. I obviously wasn't able to be brought to term yet so the doctors were telling her she could terminate her unborn child (which was me). She (please pray for her salvation though) refused, thank God. We're both alive despite that critical moment in time. She had to have me,…

Ok, despite, I'm not yet ready to share my testimony with people face to face, I want to share it with people, brothers and sisters in Christ, online. The Holy Spirit has, from the day, Sat. May 29th 2010, Jesus saved my soul from hell and put my name in the book of life to now He's really transforming my life. Yes, God has been pacient and it's almost been two years until I got the courage as I have now from God to share my testimony. I thank Him that He is pacient, He knows how to work…

I made a video. Despite not being on youtube anymore I think people should see this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vifhqL4vtVc

Now the pro-choice believe the fetus is, atleast they claim, than why does one of their books claim the fetus a life along with the mom?

Now the newborns are being labled as non-persons…

I falsely accused my cat, Gracie, for scratching up my great Aunt, who has passed away when I was little, her dresser.

I judged her without the evidence, jumping to conclusions for the dresser was like that. I asked God and her for forgiveness. What she did reminds me of God's uncondtional love. She wasn't mad she just enjoyed a scratch on/under the chin. Praise God! Jesus forgave me and so did my cat.

Here she is, this was taken awhile back. Thank God, Jesus…