Feet breath's Blog (165)

I know I'm not suppose to be afraid but I'm confused.

You probably know about the JW problem. Most of that has been settled when it comes to their "questions"...most.

I'm in a daze. There's some preacher shows mom likes. I don't know if I'm allowed to put the names. Problem is they're false...I don't know how to tell mom...especially with the one she's watching now. :( She may get suspecious especially since I've watched the one with her kind of often(I just…

I can except the deaths of so many family members. But, my pap pap (who wasn't my real grandpa but I really miss him)...it's just so hard.

I know they died when I was like between the ages or 2 or 3 to like 13 (grandma was the last one). There's been people on my aunt S.' side who's died recently but I wasn't close to them. Pappy died when I was like 2 or 3. I have atleast one memory of my great aunt (when she was in the blue hospital room in bed),one of aunt C. (I think we…

Ok, there's still some problems with the JWs but, thanks to the Lord, the problems have dwindled to a smaller number.

I realize the main problem I have with witnessing to dad,mom and my uncle. If I say something I could just be told that the Bible is man man, it has errors. What kind of fruitage is that? All that has to be said is the Bible is wrong/has errors.

Like when I tried showing my uncle about the 144,000 and the great crowd after the 12 tribes of…

Mom was watching Jack Van Impe (she likes watching him). She heard about being married to Christ. She thought that was weird. I think I got an urgency from the Holy Spirit...I'm so nervous right now.

I don't want to witness wrong. I'm not sure when He wants me to witness, when I'll hear "go".

God has also revealed that fear has kept me back so long. That fear has to be removed. There's so much coming at once.  I so need a confirmation from Him.

I need to confess something. It's totally embarassing but I need to get it off of my chest.

I see people online with such a zeal and passion for the Lord. They're prasing and worshipping.

I don't know how. I don't know how to praise and worship properly.

Who on the outside of the internet will I praise/worship Him with? How do you worship when you're the only Christian (that you know of) around...How can you worship in a house when no one else…

I've hurt my brothers and sisters in Christ. I've tried holding in my problems for the most part ever since the big event that happened awhile back (might have been atleast a few weeks)...It's helping to destroy me inside. Yet, if I say something I'm liable to hurt the brothern...Forgive me if I've hurt anyone by this

I've also hurt yidana yakubu. Brother I'm sorry. I'm not allowed on chat. I'll be sinning against mom...I'm so sorry.

I'm a wretch. I feel like…

Ok, yesterday I looked in the backally and guess what I saw? A rabbit! I love watching the wildlife (which isn't too often though) and taking pictures makes it even better!

The weird thing is I kept getting closer to it and it didn't hop away. God actually let it stay there and let me take some pictures of it (this is the best picture). Praise…

I'm sorry everyone. I'm a failure. I'm a stumbling block to the Body of Christ.

If I say something to my mom I'm really putting this family,including her, at such a big risk.

Wounds open. How can I excpect to heal from a wound when it's just going to open up again? I try to heal but than it just gets torn open again. What's the point in even trying to heal anymore? What's the point of healing when the pain will just come back again?

I'm a…

Honestly, I was numb. But, now pain has dug a deeper hole in my soul...in my heart. I'm beyond numb now.

I don't want to hold a grudge against the neighbor. I keep getting flashbacks...those flashbacks reproduce a fear that it'll happen again. And, if she had it her way every cat in this house and any that come near her property would have a stomach full of posion. With that knowledge comes fear...

The enemy has attacked before, he's uped his…

I ask You Jesus for forgiveness for any self pity or sins...for caring too much about how I look...help us get on what the right track...forgive us for our sins...

I need to know what to say against their rebuttles...Heal them, save them...Dear God please convict them with Your Holy Spirit. Set them free! Set them free through the blood of Christ! Break the bondage of enslavement and damnation.

Lord, their translation is false...is decieves them about who You…

Is it possible to be mentally/spiritually comotose?

I learned about it in 12th grade nursing (I had to look it up again to make sure I got the exact word though since I haven't been in Nursing for a little over a year). Comotose, a person sits there and just stares. They don't do much because they're in shock. They're not physically in a coma like from a wreck, yet in their mind they're sort of like in a coma. They're physically awake but the shock is too great for…

Why does this battle get more tence?

You know the depressing blogs I've wrote about,right? Well, atleast some of those has to do with this battle...

I want to help out with the harvest! I want to help with the gospel to the lost in America. I don't want to take any credit from Him-please Jesus You take the credit. Is this inspiration from the Holy Spirit?

Recently, this battle has gotton way more intence....with attacks from Satan while awake…

I'm sorry...my soul is downcasted. I'm sorry for another disheartening blog. :sighs: Forgive me...

I was ok...I'm not now though.

The enemy ups his attacks more than ever...

I'm worried. My parents... I know He's coming soon. Yet, what's going to happen to them...what's going to happen to any of them?

I'm numb....yes guilt has returned.

I'm not strong biblically. If the JW's start "lecturing" me on their…

Why is it that I seem to be loosing my faith? He's so far away...it's not His fault, it's my fault...like usual.

Why am I a stumbling block to others? Am I a stumbling block to anyone on here? If so please tell me. If I'm a stumbling block to the Body of Christ on here...does that mean I should leave? I'm a stumbling block to my own life...Am I a stumbling block to the Body of Christ?

If I'm hurting anyone or causing anyone to loose faith please tell me....if…

Not physical internal pain, it's much worse than that. It's the pain people don't see. It's the pain that is there but people don't know it...after all how could they when you don't show it. When you smile and they don't know of the struggle that is within. When you want to cry but can't because you're afraid they'll see the tears and eventually find out the problem.

I want to go home. Jesus sees and knows of this internal struggle...this battle going on inside of…

I want to be like the brothern overseas. They spread the gospel to people like communists,muslims,budhists and hindus.

Well, something struck me-and it had to be from God since I couldn't ever figure something like this out. Something struck me. Where's the missionary work for the evolutionists/atheists/satanists,mormons and Jehovah's Witnesses? I've seen websites and a show supporting creation. But, where's the on the street gospel people? You know like those overseas. How…

King James Bible (Cambridge Ed.) Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men.

http://bible.cc/matthew/5-13.htm

What has happened to the salt in America? Back in the early days pilgrims spread the…

Jesus please have mercy on me if there's any pride. I don't want to sin. Help me to forgive everyone...and help whoever needs to forgive me, will.

I'm so confused right now...There's a mix of anger and there's still fear.

My family could get destroyed (and it doesn't need help). My mother's in danger, and they're...You know who I mean...the blind leading the blind.

Lord, no matter what it takes out of me please use me for Your sake. And, to be…

I think You're reminding me of 2 Corinth. 12:9....I still need to get this off of my chest. Jesus, be my Strength...

I'm tired. I'm not strong. This battle is so intence. Lord, be my Strength....

Satanic torment-how long must it go on?

My mom and so many family members are lost. I even have lost friends...Those who I don't get to see anymore (one friend used to comes around but I don't know if that stopped cause his mama moved and he's going to…

Ok, what do I do? I'm scared to even go to sleep tonight.

I don't want Satan to attack dad, mom or the animals or me. My parents don't even know Jesus...I don't want him/his demons to hurt them...

He's been tormenting me for so long. I think the demons have gotton stronger. I think they're attacking more.

I've been getting demonic dreams...4 recently. To get that many demonic dreams so close together-something is not right.

Satan…