Feet breath's Blog (165)

Ok, I got a Spongebob pillow today from Kmart.

I liked it so I got it. I got home and seen the pillow I was going to replace.

If you seen the sides of the pillow you'd know it was torn and really messed up.…

I've been thinking about things. It's actually difficult to comprehend. You hear stories about teen suicide. It's quite tragic that it's becoming so much more common and that it's become part our society.

Teen (and tragicly some under the age of 13) bullying lead to suicide. Bullycide.

How is it possible that we as a society have gotton to this point? This isn't like some kind of disease like lung cancer. People are literally taking their lives because they…

As I've been thinking about things that have happened with the bullying and stuff...I remembered something.

I was in a very dangeous state of mind. I was suicidal but I kept my feelings to myself for the most part. I liked talking to people online because I figured they live far away,they can't tell on me.

So, I kept alot of the pain inside. I didn't like razors so I didn't cut. But, I did scratch myself. What was dangerous about that was people wouldn't see…

I'm realizing things that have caused me so much pain. The bullies,cats getting posioned. In 8th grade Geffoery could have been one of those people who takes young girls online. There was a red flag...I didn't want to say what state I lived in. He said since I didn't want to say,we must not really be friends. I wanted to leave the Pokemon forum (which I quit a long time ago). He threatened to hang himself if I left...

This Nov. will be 6 years since the "incident" with Josh."You're so…

I've got great news! My parents said they'll come to my baptism.

I need to confess something...you know how it's been hard to pretty much talk about "deep issues" since 8th grade with my parents,right? Well, it may be good if I finally tell someone this.

I didn't like the idea of razors so I didn't exactly starting "cutting". But, I used my finger nails to inflict pain by scratching myself. I guess my nails were the substitute of a…

I tried to ask mom today(by the grace of God I was able to explain it a little better than before) if she wanted to come to my baptism. She said she isn't much of a church goer.

She said I was already baptised (I was in 08). I tried to explain that this time was different for Jesus saved me in 2010 (I wasn't saved in 08). She said I was "saved" than (in 08).

She wanted to know how many times I'm going to get baptised...:sighs: I was having a really hard time…

He (or she,not sure) died today. I flushed the poor thing down the toliet;I also said Pslam 27:1.

It helps me to appricate (or atleast understand a little better) things more. Life...death. Pain...and not suffering.

I'm listening to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5dPJQ8Jve1E I'm…

As some of you may know one of my interests is anatomy, topics on the human body. You could say I also study people. I take an interest in why people do certain things and their reasoning;like their mind set.

Well, there's something very interesting. I've been thinking while watching this video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5dPJQ8Jve1E about our resurrected bodies. We will still have physicaly bodies in…

What do you do when you see yourself as an offense to others? Like the only black sheep in the bunch...

When you know that even just saying something could cause people heartache...

What do you do when there's so much spiritual warefare going on around you...you don't know where to turn?

When you're so tired and weary you feel like crying...

My question is...what do you do in such situations?

I checked my email. The next baptism service is Oct. 28th...isn't it ironic since it's 3 days before Halloween? I wonder how mad you-know-who is right now. :D

We also know somebody who is suppose to have her baby in that month.

Wow, Oct. is a busy month...

I just wonder if God planted that baptism day on purpose...

Wouldn't it be something if the baby was born the same time they were performing baptisms?

Wow, just…

She took me to church today.

The main point I want to say about it is the difference that the Holy Spirit helped me to notice between this church and Kingdom Hall. Yes, I know there's a big difference...like night and day.

What I mean is when I was at Kingdom Hall April 5th for the Memorial...the Holy Spirit let me see that the atmosphere in there was very thick. He let me see so many lost people. The word is nothing short of bondage that fits its…

I'm so hyper inside right now. And I think it'll help, atleast for a little while, to blog about it.

I think I may be being called into some kind of missionary/ministery work for Jehovah's Witnesses....that seems like the direction I'm being led in to. If there's another name for it, I don't know what it's called. I want to be a missionary to the JWs...like the persecuted brothern overseas are missionaries for Muslims, Buddists and Hindus.

Jesus,help me to love You…

Ok, I realize something. I'm a very insecure person. I apolijize way too much...

I remember when I was little I apolijized/said "thank you" way too much. Mrs. S., I was in her speech therapy class, told me oneday I don't need to (insert whatever it was I said) say that all the time or whatever.

Mom has told me I apolijize way too much before. And I realize she's right. I find I have to say "I'm sorry" or "I apolijize" more than is usually needed. For some…

I went to the store with dad. I came back. One of the fish died...poor thing. I said Psalm 27:1 after/around the time of the "burial" (a.k.a it got flushed). It's so earie to see something that was once alive...now dead.

R.I.P little one. You're in the Lord's hands. If He cares about a sparrow than I know He seen you.

We got a new family member, I think we got her (I'm pretty sure it's a girl) a week from yesterday.

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I want to see Jesus. My soul is very weary.

Life can be weird. Things happen and it gets to a point of "something bad is going to happen"...like it's only a matter of time...

I want to hear His voice better but I know I have to learn to wait on God. I need to concentratee on loving God will all my heart,soul, and mind...oh precious Jesus I need You to help me to put You first in life...

I need to also think more about others and less of…

I'd like to be a missionary. God didn't put me in China,Africa or Pakistan. But, just because I can't be a missionary over there doesn't mean I can't be one over here in the U.S.A.

I want to be a missionary to JWs. Some are sent to preach the gospel to lost Muslims in Pakistan or Iraq. Some to India for Hindus. And,some in China and Japan for Buddists. Well, I don't live in any of those places but there's a lot of lost souls walking the streets in America. Alot who say…

Yesterday,mom randomly told me something.

"You know most people don't know Jesus and Satan are brothers?"

I thought "Oh no." I wanted to "retreat". But, thanks to the Lord I was quickly reminded that this was the perfect opurtunity to ask where it's at in the Bible! So, I asked her.

"All, where is it at in the Bible?"

I got told that it's in there. I think she may have said she doesn't know where.

Now I know it's…

Jesus what can be done? I've seen so much pain. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0njTvTpOBSA

Homeless people,people who were victims of bullying (not only I but I've witnessed it when I was in school especially Junior High).

The abused. Children and there was a poor girl at school who, I don't know if it was her boyfriend but this boy was abusive. Another woman has trouble with drugs and an abusive…

By His grace, I'm learning...

I'm so excited! Let me explain. You may know about what happened yesterday. I came within possibly seconds of meeting Jesus! That's how fast it went. I couldn't process what was happening fast enough. With the speed the blue vehicle coming towards us, that's one reason why the processing was slow for me.

It has so humbled me. I now see things differently. I now want to see Him more than ever now! It's been a humbling experince…

I think someone already blogged about this awhile back saying to always pray before you get into a vehicle. Well, please always do pray for protection...

1.I remember I prayed  about concerning the travel of my dad and his friends one day. Well, I found out later they were almost in a wreck.

2.Probably no more than a month or so ago dad dropped us off at a little shopping center (there was a Save alot and dollar store there) while he went to go help his friend…