Feet breath's Blog – May 2013 Archive (5)

Are you going through a hard time? There's hope.

I was going through a hard time [flashbacks] and God put a rainbow in the sky. Praise Jesus!

Even when you're going through a really hard time remember there's always…

I've been remembering alot of things in life.

I know I had bad speech when I was little. I seen a video of when I was 9 and sounded as if I was 5. But I remember when I was in 3rd grade. Someone who was supposed to help me with speech therapy [not the person who usually did it with me], she wanted me to swallow a ball.

This is driving me crazy. I needed to talk about it so I'm blogging. Why we she want me to swallow a ball?

I know it happened a…

I found this video, "Scars" by Jonny Diaz

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C5avBGmFjJo

Reminds me of 8th grade. Except I didn't cut, I scratched myself. I looked online and found out other people have scratched. It's a relief to know I'm not alone...The burden is lessening on me now. I thought I was alone in scratching in 8th grade. A great burden has been lifted off of my heart. While it's still too…

More memories are coming back. I feel like crying...Some memories I can't even talk about.

Would they have been better off without me? Would they have been better off if I was never born?

It wasn't just the bullies, it wasn't just the cats getting poisoned, it just wasn't watching my uncle play evil video games/horror movies were on t.v while growing up.

Did she hate me? Did I make her final years miserable?

I was in a program…

Praise God! I finally understand why that flashback of the neighbor has been deeply rooted into my mind.



I remember this when I was 2. Our next door neighbor stuck her head out the door and yelled at us. To this day I can't stand hearing people yell. It hurts my hearing too bad. I must have had that problem like all my life.



I think I got that problem where my sences are out of wack. I can't process things normally. It's like when I process…