Nicholas's Blog – January 2010 Archive (3)

For those who are not savy with the internet, if you get a request on here from some girl, and her picture is bright and perfect, but she has no profile info except a name and gender, shes fake and it isnt a girl. I used to manage a social site, and people like that make profile on websites that dont charge, and then they will make quick profiles and use a pretty picture to attract guys, but its not a real girl, its probably some foreigner. Just be careful, and delete everyone who has a page… Continue

So to understand why I do the things I do, I just have to look at why I do them. My entire life has been filled with motivations of the devil. Like I said in my previous blog, I have been afraid of Gods plan for a long time, not trusting him to fulfill my need for happiness. Now im not saying that I didnt think God could give me happiness, but it wasnt the happiness I wanted. I have always wanted to be rich, have nice things, date a lot of women, and be glorified by everyone who saw me. The… Continue

Lately I have been having a hard time reconnecting with God, and its like I know why, but for whatever reason I keep asking myself why, avoiding what I know in my heart holds the real answer. I avoid God in a bunch of aspects in my life and Im pretty sure im scared, probably because the Devil whispers these sweet, hollow little promises of happiness and fun, money, power, and I sometimes fall for it, and think that what God has in store for me will be the recipricle of what I want.(SELFISH I… Continue