Kathleen Belding's Page

Gender

Female

Country (not County)

usa

Occupation:

decorator

I'm here to...

get help dealing with my past and where to go from here

Interests:

being a christain person and walk with Jesus

I'm passionate about...

Jesus

My story with God

I committed adultry and divorced. I want to marry the man I left my husband for and I am afraid to do that. I love him and he is very good to me. It has been 15 years and he is finally divorced. Every day I have a stomach ache and feel terrible. I talk to God about it every day now. I was on line and someone answered me and I could not even read what they wrote back. They said not to marry him and that I would go to Hell. I had gone to see my priest about this but he is busy. He saw me and we spoke mostly about that I had had an abortion and he told me God has forgiven me but I need to forgive myself. I really did not dwell on the infidelity and now I wish I had. I got that email after I had seen him. I called him and told him a little about the email. He said not to have any more correspondence with that person and that Jesus would not feel like that. I hurt so much. I am so sorry that I did the things I did and want to feel whole again. Can you help me? If you are going to tell me I am going to hell please dont write back because I cannot take that. This man I am with also had a wife and 2 small children. He feels he gave up every thing to be with me and now I have these panic attacks and dont know where to turn. I am seeing a physicatrist , well really a therapist, now. I am losing weight because I cannot eat much. Can you help?

Other stuff about me:

I want to marry this man and leave as a good Christian and have Jesus blessing. I do not want to worry about going to hell any more.