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Soul food for the Day: The CENTER...

The center chapter of the BIBLE is Psalm 118.. there are 594 chapters before and after Psalm 118
And if we will add this we will get 1188... in which the center verse of the BIBLE is PSALM 118:8
What is the significant of Psalm 118:8 in God's perfect will for our lives?
It is better to trust in the LORD, than to put confidence in man.-- Psalm 118:8


When things get tough, always remember faith doesn't get you around trouble..
it gets you through it!
When you relinquish the desire to control your future you obtain happiness...

Prayer:
Father God, bless my friend in whatever it is that you know he/she may be needing this day....
May their life be full of your peace, prosperity and power as they seek to have closer relationship with you. Amen...

i, my name is Karen and I am so grateful to hear how GOD rescued your daughter and her friends from the car accident. You really realize HIS everlasting, always Present ways especially in those times!

I've gone through many problems with my self, children and now my grandson, who is improving from an ATC accident that flew him into Jackson Memorial Trauma Unit...it's the best hospital possibly in the U.S.; at least in Miami, FL. He went in with10% chance of living and now, a month later, he has been through surgery for his right arm, of which the drs. think he will have no use of, But, GOD has the final word on all things. He broke his jaw in five places, was very banged up, bruised lungs, but, today, one month after all of this, he is now in a room with a direct line. The vent came off after his jaw surgery, but, he kept the trach for several days, it was removed Friday, and his mom heard his voice for the first time in a month, WHAT A BLESSING! He was so thirsty, his biggest complaint, and now his mom and dad supplied all of the favorite drinks he loves. I just tried to call, but, I've been put off for a half an hour, I guess he is busy with nurses and/or doctors. To OUR LORD AND SAVIOR, I am so grateful for HIS rescueing my grandson and bringing about his healing so quickly. Eddie has a great sense of humor and attitude has so much to do with everything.

Speaking of attitude, I can't seem to get mine right with the LORD. I am stuggling with a drug addiction which I developed six years ago after going on chemo type treatments. My body is so warn out without any pain medication, that whenever there is a time I know I need energy to do something, I take them ahead of time to keep up with the action.

I really want to come to a place where I hate the drugs and be able to trust JESUS, that HE will restore me from this with a complete deliverance, but, I can't get my inner-self broken to allow HIS Spirit to come through. I am so much in the way.

I have suffered addiction a big part of my life, but, in 1992 GOD delivered me from alcoholism and HE came into my heart and made my life aware of HIS PRESENCE at all times for a solid ten years and after getting ill for the last six years, I have fallen away.

My heart longs so much for walking with HIM in HIS SPIRIT all the time, I know HE is here and will never leave me, and my heart cries when I think of HIM, when I'm praying and I have asked for help and deliverance from these pills and HE is taking a much longer time, I've been ill and no energy for six years now, and I pray that HE WILL TOUCH ME WITH HIS HEALING HAND, and let me have my life back, to serve HIM. That's all I really want in my heart, but, the alabaster jar, my self-will, can not get broken...I guess it's for my dis-obedience of taking the pills instead of depending on HIM and waiting for HIS MIRACLE, but all of the perseverence in the last six years, has not build a patience in me, but, an urgency and an anger within myself to get well NOW.

lease pray for my obedience, trust and faith in JESUS to quit and go through the detox, because I know walking with HIM is AWESOME, WONDERFUL, UP-LIFTING, the GREATEST LIFE of all...I just don't understand myself, knowing but, not doing. I guess I'm an addict, but, I know that I am a new creature in CHRIST and all old things have passed; so how did I end up in this position again?

Thanks for letting me vent! I have a great life, a great, great family, four adult children, eleven grandchildren and in five months I'll be a 'Great-Grandma! I have a wonderful GOD-Fearing husband who stays involved in ministry and with the church all the time and I just keep mopping! I need a CHRIST-MINDED ATTITUDE again, and I try daily staying in HIS WORD, but, I guest I need a true repentance of my sin. I hate the path of surrender, but, I know the point of surrender is the most AWESOME place to be. It's on the Mount of Transfiguration, where I, like Peter want to build the tent and stay there. Life has become difficult for me. I don't know if my tiredness is my lack of energy doing things, or if doing things tears me down. I do one little thing and have to sit down, and repeat that throughout the day, so I have become a couch potato, reading, watching t.v. and withdrawing from life. I am a true isolator, but, when I am in CHRIST, I am a lover of all people, especially the seemingly unloveable...I guess because I feel unloveable, but, everyone pours love out all over me. It builds me up and CHRIST seems to flow through me, but, I come back to the isolation.

Karen...><>...any words of wisdom or encouragement would be greatly appreciated.

Thanks again for listening...I don't even know if it has anything to do with your other comments, I'm just stuggling so much with this that it ends up coming out everytime I comment anywhere. I am a desparate sinner, longing for JESUS' SPIRIT to AWAKEN in me again, that I may live for HIM in the abundant life that HE promises.

PEACE...><>...Karen

Blessings

hey hoacg,wow that is just like GOD to do something like that,i dont belive in coincidences, its neat that that picture is here. we have a lot of rain and wind here,very wet,nice to be indoors and chillout. what took u 2 kentucky? one of my favorite songs is playing from your site my redeemer lives,great song. i am so sorry for what you r going through right now, i am going through some similar situations , my wife has left,i did see it coming though,she said it was for a little while ,its been a few months, and i found out she has been seeing someone she out close to atlanta,about 4hrs out. it is robly for the best. anyway i know that GOD is still on the throne and that HE alone cancomfort all of his children and that will call on HIM. GOD is good all the time,i would like to incourage you 2 trust HIM with all your heart, at times it is not easy it can be hard and it is hard, i am glad that you are seeking GOD and not just giving up, HE is faithful even when we are not < HE is strong when we are weak,the bible says that HIS strenght is made perfect in our weekness. my prayers are with you.again i am so sorry for all that you are feeling and going through, rember you are not alone GOD is with you and so are your brothers and sissters in CHRIST. TOHIM WHO SITS ON THE THRONE BE HONOR AND POWER FOREVER AMEN LOVE YOUNIN CHRIST JORDAN.

Dear Friend
How are you doing?Read your profile after you updated it a bit, you are a very passionate and warm woman!You love with your whole being! The world needs more woman like you.
But there is something I want to ask you , you said you are depressed? why is that so? such a passionate woman who has so much to give, why are you depressed? What happened to you, is it a love that is not answered?
Feel free to send me an sms if you want so we can help you through this wildernis of "seeking" yourself.
Keep on being such a warm loving kind of person for God gave you that character.
I love our page with that woman who seems so peaceful and all the doves, very beautiful and feminine
Glad you are here
BLessings Nienie