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Right now my husband and I are having very big problems. I have an amazing support system that is trying to help me through this very rough time. However, my husband is not a religious person and in these times he is doubting God even more then before. He has only known relationships in the past that have left him heart broken. Every women in his past including the mother of his child has always left him in the end. Their relationship was a constant up and down for 5 or 6 years. Please pray for us that we will be strong enough to find our way through this dark time and he realizes that I am in this for the long haul. In such a dark time my faith is tested, and I hope that I can get through this with him, meaning my husband and God. I know that I must be stong for myself, my marriage, and my husband. He is a lost soul in desperate need of faith. He has never known the unconditional love of another person. What I hope he soon realizes is that I am right here waiting to prove my love to him over and over again. I know that I can not do it alone, but I am a very impatient person. I want everything to be fixed now. I am now at the point that I have gave it all over to God. People keep telling me that if it doesn't work, atleast, I gave it my all. That is not an option for me. IT WILL WORK! God never brings two people together in holy matrimony just so it will end in divorce. It is all up to the couple to work at it and not give up. I remember this time last year wondering where our relationship was headed. I would pray about it alot. There were several times that God came to me in a dream and showed me these little glimpses into my future of Jeremy calling me or introducing me as his wife. It was then that I knew we would be married. Right after our one year anniversary of dating we got married. We are now creeping up on our one year anniversary of marriage. I know the first year is the hardest, but its my husband I am worried about. He has never been in a relationship like this before. I need him to have faith in us and that we are going to make it. Right now, I feel empty and I need my husband. However, where I am lacking right now I will find my strength through God to push me forward. I know that we will make it through this tough time, but it is my husband that is so skeptical and doubts everything. Pray that God can soften his heart and let all these wonderful things in. Pray for my husband that he finally finds the true love and happiness that I have found in our marriage and in God. Pray for my husband that he will hang on and not give up too soon. Pray that my marriage make it through this and be stronger then ever. Pray for me that I will have enough strength for the both of us. With God all things are possible, he can work miracles and right now I need one.