Susan Mathews

Profile Information:

Gender

Female

Country (not County)

United States

Occupation:

Student of Healthcare Administration

I'm here to...

Find fellowship with my brothers & sisters in Christ

Interests:

Learning how to live in a way that would make God proud of the effort he put into creating me. I am currently in my third year of college at the University of Phoenix (an online program) majoring in Healthcare Administration with an emphasis on Information Technology & Systems. I want to someday be a Patient Advocate to help others find their way in an increasingly unfriendly and confusing healthcare system. I know the pain and suffering that can happen in these settings and want to help my brothers and sisters to find the community and state/federal resources they need to survive, and better yet, thrive!

I'm passionate about...

God. I am also passionate about learning about Jesus and what he did to bring us closer to God after our fall from grace. I am passionate about my fellow brothers and sisters, and want to do all that I can to help them find their way to Christ and live a life that is full of hope and promise, giving proper glory to Him through our thoughts and actions.

My story with God

I have always loved God very passionately, but tried to do it in a VERY secular way since religion was SO distasteful. I have hated religion all my life, but didn't realize how much it had distanced me from His love, guidance, and protection. I don't hate religion anymore, but still don't care for it. I don't want my walk with God to be about ritual and become a rut, resulting in inevitable apathy. I want passion and fire, as God created me to feel and express the most profound emotions possible. If I don't laugh with tears and cry with complete abandon when I worship God, then I'm not doing it right. Until this point, I hadn't realized how critically important it is to speak my thoughts (about God) aloud (in prayer and otherwise) and to allow my emotions (about God) to be seen and felt by others. This has been a huge revelation for me, because before I had always seen it as all for show, like some kind of soap opera or entertainment, not realizing the true significance and purpose it had in bringing me closer to others & to God. I am but an infant in my knowledge, and I now see I will spend my lifetime (really, an eternity!!) learning about the love He has for me, and for all of us, and growing with that knowledge.

Other stuff about me:

I have a wonderful and very Christ-like husband (Praise the Lord, for He is bountiful in His love), who has prayed for me and with me through all my years of doubt. I also have three children, who are now 13-17, who have suffered because of my doubts as they grew. I pray that they see the changes in me and want to find the source of my changed life: God and his excellence on earth manifested through the birth and life of Jesus! I am so thankful for my opened eyes, hearing ears, and unhardened heart! I recently watched 'Fireproof' and 'Faith Like Potatoes' and they made me cry with shame for all the things I have unwittingly done to hurt my Lord and Saviour! Glory be to God in the highest!!

P.S. I also need to mention that my mother was diagnosed with MS more than 10 years ago, and when we bought a place here in Montana we asked her to move in with us. I didn't want her being taken care of by strangers since we had no family left in Texas where we came from (me & my mom). Regardless, she now lives with us and takes care of all the household chores like cleaning and washing, not because we want or expect her to, but because she needs to feel like a contributing member of the family. I love her to pieces, but there are times that her aging ways really get under my skin (as with all parents I am sure). Pray for me, brothers and sisters, that I might find the kindness and compassion that I intended to fill her last days with (not that she is by any means dying!), as sometimes life and my mind takes me so very far from my heart.

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