Jacy PIckett

Female

Columbia, SC

United States

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Gender

Female

Country (not County)

United States

Occupation:

Unemployed

I'm here to...

Find answers to some questions about God/Jesus and life.

Interests:

Reading and learning new things

I'm passionate about...

Education and health

My story with God

I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis a couple of years ago and since then my life has fallen apart. The first sign that something was wrong was when I had a bout with Bell’s palsy. I thought I’d had a stroke and my husband rushed me to the hospital. I was told what was wrong with me and sent to a neurologist. When he was able to see me he said I needed to have a lumbar puncture. When I went to have the procedure done, the neurologist walked in and proceeded to STAB me in my back five times. He hit nerves three of those times and was not able to get the fluid he needed. He then told me to get up and get dressed and he walked out. He had his receptionist schedule an appointment for me with a radiologist.
I waited for five weeks for the test results to come back. Finally, after I never heard from him, I called his office and was told I had to come in to get the results. He looked me in the eye and said there’s nothing wrong with you go home. So I went home. A few days later my feet and legs went numb. I went to see my family doctor and told her what was going on. She sent me to another neurologist. This neurologist requested the test results from the first guy. Right on the top in plain English were the words, Diagnosis: Multiple Sclerosis.
The new neurologist gave me a movie to watch about MS and information on the medication he wanted me to start on. I learned to give myself a shot everyday.
No body told me that MS was so expensive. The job I was working when I was first diagnosed did not offer health insurance so my husband had me on his. Also, when I had exacerbations I missed days from work that I was not paid for. We started falling behind on our bills. I eventually got a better paying job with my own insurance but by that time we were so behind in everything we couldn’t catch up. In 2006, our house was put into foreclosure. We moved into a one bedroom apartment.
In October of 2007, I fell and broke my ankle due to MS. I was unable to work and have been out of work since then. After that our car was repossessed. We have no way to get around because with what little bit of money we could scrape up we bought a used car and the engine went bad.
My husband is the only one working. He works so hard trying to make his check stretch throughout the month. Sometimes, I have to do without medicines so we can have food. This causes me to have a relapse. My parents help us out as much as they can. They go as far as paying for my doctor’s appointments and medicine. They also give me money to have. I appreciate everything that they are doing but they have to pay for my baby brother to complete college.
I feel so useless. I wish I could work and help out but I am now blind in one eye, I have no balance, I am constantly dizzy, and I have a headache constantly. I also have arthritis in my spinal cord. It is getting to the point where sometimes I feel that my family would be better off with out me in it. If I hadn’t got sick, none of this would be happening. I can’t do anything to help bring money into the household. I applied for disability and was denied so I am in the process of appealing. Meanwhile, we are broke and have no car and my husband can only work and sleep because he is working so hard. I want to do something to help him and be able to repay my parents.
I believe in God and attend church. I pray and have faith but the way my life is going has left me feeling like God is not listening to me. I have faith that he is going to step in and send help one day but I keep wondering when. My life is falling apart and it is affecting the life of my husband as well.

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