Struggle with Doubts and Online Relationships

I know that people/believers carry various views. I have read people that say it one way, and others say it another. I personally don't know who is more right, or perhaps we are all right, depending on individual race, to which God has put each one of us on. I believe this way because God created us all to be different. When I say that we are all running separate races, I'm not say that we all get to heaven on a different path. But rather, due to our Individualities (combinations of where we grew up, who raised us, what churches we have attended, who we married or who we haven't married, who has been a friend who is not a friend the list goes on and on) we've all had different combinations of life experiences, and we continue to experience different life experiences. I personally think this also includes how we experience God, hence we don't all experience Him the same. For some of us He brought you out of depth of Hell, while another person He merely gave you purpose you had never had before. I feel that if you use your imagination you could come up with lists much longer then I am writing right now.

I feel that at times I disobey scripture. Like many of you, it isn't that I'm doing this on purpose, but rather I am trying to make the best of the circumstances that I find myself in. Since the Bible often deals with things from multiple directions it is hard to for me to figure out which direction God wants me personally to take. Do I burn with sexual desire? Sure I do! But that desire, as annoying as it is, can be ignored, or at least hidden from those around me. I'm not even sure when Paul says "36 If anyone is worried that he might not be acting honorably toward the virgin he is engaged to, and if his passions are too strong[b] and he feels he ought to marry, he should do as he wants. He is not sinning." If He means sexual passions or just passions in general. Earlier in this section I find: "25 Now about virgins: I have no command from the Lord, but I give a judgment as one who by the Lord’s mercy is trustworthy. 26 Because of the present crisis, I think that it is good for a man to remain as he is. 27 Are you pledged to a woman? Do not seek to be released. Are you free from such a commitment? Do not look for a wife. 28 But if you do marry, you have not sinned; and if a virgin marries, she has not sinned. But those who marry will face many troubles in this life, and I want to spare you this."  1 Corinthians 7

Where I feel that I have disobeyed God in my online relationships, is whenever I meet a single lady online, my I always wonder if She could be the one for me, even when my logical mind tells me "she lives too far away, and will probably just disappear in less then a year. What I am trying to say is I have always felt that my online friendships, whenever it involves, especially a single woman, is awkward due to my feelings. I am asking for prayer because I want to be free of this.... I am not looking for advice, I'm asking for prayer. I'm asking for God to 'fix' me.