Needing Guidance and Encouragement from the Lord

My husband told me he wanted a divorce and he found someone else a month and a half ago. We have have been married 4 1/2 years. I truly love him and want my marraige to work out. He has filed for a divorce that his girlfriend paid for. He refuses to see our kids away fromher and he barely calls them anymore. I left last October and then in February he had a bad car accident,he could have died but his sister and I made sure that he got medical treatment that he was refusing. After his accident he was my husband again and I feel in love with him all over again. He then got fired from his job and things changed alot. He became worried and aggitated,stressed about money. I left again but was still seeing him and taking him to work and spending time with him on the weekends with the kids,spending time as a family. I can honestly say that I did not have my complete heart in my marriage because I was affraid that things wouldn't change. I have seen my mistakes and asked for forgivenss. I truely believe that God has forgiven me. He has filed for a divorce and the day i had to make an appointment with an attorney I was crushed,I spent my lunch time crying and praying that God would change his heart and to forgive me for my sins in my marriage. I recieved an answer to these prayers when I got back to work and have recieved answers since. I do not believe that it is God's will for us to be divorced. I had to file a response to his filing which was based on lies,he stated in the papers that we have been seperated since October 2008,which we were for 4 months but we then got back together and even lived together for a time,he then said that we did not have any assets to divide which we do. I could not and can not bring myself to file for divorce,the attorney told me that he does not have grounds for a divorce,I do. I have spoken with him off and on,but he has admitted to me that him being and living with this girl is wrong and that we both made mistakes and he made mistakes also. We both have made mistakes and I have apologized for my mistakes. In the past 2 weeks he has accused me of having a boyfriend and I don't. i have had mutual friends tell me that he does not love her that it is about money,his sister even told me this. My friend just told me today that if he didn't love me that he wouldn't care if I had a boyfriend,the fact that he is asking and accusing me of it says that he does still love and care about me.I have told him that there is nothing that he can do that will make me not love him. I pray everyday for God to turn his heart and put it on his heart to dissolve this divorce.I love my husband and i feel as if we both took on another for granted and I know that it is not God will for divorce. I am at peace with knowing this and that I trust GOd to turn this around and restore my marriage. I do wonder sometimes if I am in denial an not facing reality. I have had people tell me I am crazy that I will have to face reality sooner or later and go on with my life,however I don't feel that is the right thing to do,to just give up. What should I do go on with life and give up?