The depth of sin

I am such an ignorant. Few months ago I would talk to God at night and go to sleep with a smile on my face thinking that i had managed to overcome sin that day... The more I learn the more guilty I know I am, there is no excuse because I know now what sin is. I will never ever be able to love God as he deserves and that is the main commandment. I find myself repenting numerous times a day but I don't complain about it becase this shows me He is dealing with me what ensures me that He is with me and considers me His child. It is so hard... I am happy and scared at d same time because I realse that ths is not a game, this is not even my life on earth I'm dealng with but eternity. How to control evil thoughts?, how to protect your eyes? How to control your dreams? It's is easy to avoid doing bad or to avoid hanging around with the bad crow , but can you protect yourself from yourself? how do you honor God the way he deserves? How big is my faith? When I finally accepted and realised of the depth of my sin as a human being, I learnt that we deserve nothing. What Jesus did for us is so GREAT that I don't dare ask for anything to the Lord in prayer, whatever he wants to give I will humbly take it... What am I going through? Is there anyone in thesame situation as me? Thank you In advance. Vanessa